.` aLone in the rain

Just Sherlyn

2011-06-01T17:00:00.003+08:00

I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy, I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry, I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me - I’m going to smile.No one can promise they’ll never hurt you, because at one time or another they will. The real promise is if the time you spent together will be worth the pain in the end. Some one just told me today " If you find yourself in love with a person who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart."

Sherlyn drop enough of tears, to drown the heart that hurt her.

She gonna walk out here, trying to be fine

She gonna smile and hide her tears

She seems sad, and weak, and i wanna help her

and when she look into the mirror,

I realize it was no one, but myself.

After many heartbreaks, i should learn how to be strong, and live a better life again.

If it's always as easy as it seems, but it's not.

I've cried, I'ved tried ...

sarang heyo

2011-05-26T13:46:00.002+08:00

I thought i've forgotten you, but i guess i forgot to.

Fruitful week previously, headed to Club Sensation with buddy, his friends, Junius,Cheryl for a drink. It's Shane's new performance place, so just head over to support, kinda nice place compare to the previous, just the smoking part, gosh it almost kill us. Finally finish my avante garde shoot with Michael from Modelmayhem, american style shoot, damm tiring, esp the focusing of emotions, drains me off. Gonna upload the pictures once i get them [:

We always long for the forbidden things, and desire what is denied us. I love the glamourous you, I love the way you look at me, I love the way you handle my emotion, I love the way you hold my hands, I love the way you touch my heart, but i doesn't love the way you were so near to me yet i know i couldn'nt have you always.

A million words could describe how much u meant in my heart.

It hurts the most

2011-05-05T21:32:00.004+08:00

Every night i talk to the stars
pretending its you..
it acts just like you though..
far away and never replies to my questions .

Sometimes if you love someone so much, it will actually hurt more than you ever know.The hardest thing I've done is acting like i hate you, when really i love you more than you will ever know. Sometimes, the love, erupts like a volcano, unexpectedly, passionately.Sometimes, it dies off, together with the burning flame.How much more,could this goes on.

I've learned that:
Goodbyes will always hurt,
pictures will never replace being there,
thanks is a feeble word,
memories forget the hard times,
words can never replace feelings,
and hero's often go unsung.

Oftentimes we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to.
Though that does’t mean that we've stopped loving them or we've stopped to care.

I guess, sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you. Looking upon our memories, i called it off the day, and realize perhaps we're not meant to be.Switching off away from the world, and perhaps closing my heart, wiping away those tears.

I guess there is no material harder than saying goodbye.

Love- is just a word, that is often mention but rarely seen.

Baby

2011-05-02T23:28:00.003+08:00

Three words, eight letters, so difficult to say.
They're stuck inside of me, they try and stay away.

But this is too important to let them have their way.
I need to do it now, I must do it today.
I am sorry.

My lover,

I'm sorry for giving you sleepless nights
I'm sorry for your pain & agony
I'm sorry for the missing harmony
I'm sorry for my selfish love
I'm sorry for not caring enough
I'm sorry for my restlessness
I'm sorry for the losing grace

Falling for you, Falling apart ..

Thats what i wanna tell you

2011-05-01T12:30:00.001+08:00

If the time could ever stop at this moment... I wish..

Credits : Edmund Sim & Richard Lim

I turn and look into your eyes, full of emotions, i felt a range of feeling, circulating around my mind. I whisper love into your ears, and around us was silents, it seems that the world turn the busy city to a city of angels, where everyone would bliss our love.The best and most beautiful things in this world cannot be seen or even heard, but must be felt with the heart. Our love puts the fun in together, The sad in apart, The hope in tomorrow, The joy in the heart but yet sadness in our life.Once in awhile, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale, just like how we used to be. Cinderella returns to reality when the clock strike 12, and back to the tragic life of hers. As i walk back, all i hope, was just for the time, to stop at this moment, where our heart stays, for just a moment, seal our love with a kiss, everlasting kiss was all we ever wanted. There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness, and my reason was you, because you're the one.

My soul is shattered without your arms to hold me, just like a mirror without a reflection. My lover, your smile is my sunrise; your kiss is my sunset. Thank You for being always there for me, you're someone in life i would never want to lose.

When i need a friend, you are here with me. When i need help, you're still here with me. When i need someone who care, you're here with me. When i need someone to love, you are here with me. When i need someone who is special , you're also here with me. Baby, i miss you so much, too much to be true, missing you ever single miniutes and second, i turn around and look into your eyes, and i realize, i miss you even when you're just right beside me. Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control. Asked me about love, i would look at you and say i don't know anything about it, I just know that i'm in love because i think about you more time in a day than think about myself.

True love never ends, in the heart of the lover.

Love starts with a hug, grows with a kiss and end with a tears. My lover, if there comes any day when we can't be together, just know that you are in my heart and will always be there. I love you not only because of who you are but also because of who i am when i'm with you. Baby, you can fall for everything, but the best way, is to fall for me.

There may be a day you walk away, there maybe a day you forgot my name, there maybe a day you leave me, but with all that, our sweetest thoughts carries the hardest memories. Our first kiss had always been remembered, and i hope you always remember, how i plant my first kiss on you. I looked into your eyes and tell you how much you meant in my heart, wishing you could feel my love for you. My lover, i love you for all i do, and as always.

Sweetest hello and hardest goodbye.

For all i know, my love for you will never change.

Where there is great love

2011-04-29T12:15:00.003+08:00

( Credits: Junius Lim Photography )

Whenever I cried he would always make me feel like he would change the world if he could so it couldn't hurt me anymore. But now I’m crying and he's not here.

You can close your eyes to things you don’t want to see, but you can’t close your heart to things you don’t want to feel. All of a sudden, i don't know how should i pen down my thoughts, many days and nights, it left me thinking, who am i, to you. Your Friend, Your lover, Your future or just another girl that walk pass your life. Our sweetest memories left me pondering, if we're fated to be. When you said, I'm your everything, did you meant it, when you said, you love me, was it Love or just another word you said to make me smile.A teardrop is insignificant in a pool of water, but it can touch the soul as it runs down someone’s face.Someone can walk into your life and it is not until after they walk out that you realize that they were even there. And i knew, if you ever walk out of my life, i wouldn't know how could i face, face my life without you.

True love doesn't have a happy ending, because true love never ends. Letting go is one way of saying I love you. And if you comes back, we would stay, happily ever after.True Love burns the brightest, But the brightest flames leave the deepest scars.Because true love, never ever, runs smoothly.Baby,To find true love you must listen with your heart and not your mind, and i just wanna know, if your heart, looking for me? Love never dies, but right now, i couldn't see colours in my life, because my heart bleed since turning into stone.

I wish for you and your love, but perhaps it might never return.

Alone i shall wait, forever it can be. I'll be waiting.

Love

2011-04-28T00:36:00.005+08:00

Tears are words the hard can't express

Credits: Junius Lim Photography

(Copyright- All right reserved by original owner)

I hate the stars because I look at the same ones as you do, without you

Love is never easy.

It just seems like another dream, she, the one you share your dreams, the one you plan to creates a relation, the one whom you can rush out from a place to answer her call, the one whom you plan to live a life with, the one you could miss, every single minute and second, the one that make your heart soften whenever she look into your eyes and the one you feel hurt whenever she cried.
" you're always mine, in my dreams" but when you wake up and realise, she wasn't there, you look at that blank wall, feeling all alone.

You walk pass couples, wishing your life would be just as sweet as any couples on the road, you look at the girl with a ring on her finger, and made you realise, could you ever had the chance to do so, with the girl you love. Everything were merely just an illusion, everything was just a dream to you. Everything was uncertain, however for one thing he know, all he wants was her. It wasn't foolish, it is true love, something we could never see in heaven and earth, we talks about it, but we rarely see it.

Being alone, was all he could do, however, he didn't realise that at the other part Earth, the girl he might be looking for, might be sitting right beside her bed, wishing, wishing that he is there for her. Their sweetest song carries the saddest thoughts, she looks upon the sky, and made a wish. She keep it silence, no one knows it. Tears roll down her cheek, she realise, she needs him, badly. Pleasure of love last for a moment,Pain of Love last for a lifetime. And every time they talk, they fall a bit harder each day.

Everyone called it an impossible love, but he holds on, to something, call faith, looking forward for every moments. She, who holds back, realise that, this time, it was a forbidden love, an impossible love, yet all she wants to do, was to walk towards the love, that no one would encourage for. She walks alone, with wound and injuries, she falls, but she stood up, for her faith and love.

What's love, and why could lovers gone through miles of obstacles,just to be in love, why wouldn't everything, be as simple as ABC. It was love , the creation of this certain emotional feel, call heartbreaks. Alone she shall wait, forever it can be, she knew, she will always wait..

Love, is never easy..

Better never to have met you in my dream,

2011-04-27T19:17:00.003+08:00

Credits: Junius Lim Photography

(Exclusive Shoot, All right Reserved)
I'd like to run away
From you,
But if you didn't come
And find me...
I would die

2011-04-27T18:30:00.005+08:00

(Photos collection from East Coast Photographer Outdoor Shoot)

Credits to ALL Photographers that attend this outing and Edmund for organising this event.

Massive outdoor photoshoot last week, enjoy and had a blastful one.
Thanks to all photographer that come in that day and also Edmund the Organizer.
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Today Post, will be mainly to credit certain photographer and also photographer that i've work with before. Feel free to contact them for Events (:
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183Creative Studio

Photographer are accredited from The Artistic Guild of the Wedding Photo journalist Association is a group of international wedding photojournalists, who capture unscripted wedding moments as they happen, and excel in the art of post-production image processing.
Photographer: Edmund (http://www.edmundphoto.com/) & Richard

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Time may take us apart, that's true,

2011-04-26T02:14:00.003+08:00

~Credit to -Junius Lim Photography

~Credits to Sniper (Steven)~

They said I deserve the best, but if the best isn't you, I don't want it.

A man falls in love through his eyes,
a woman through her ears..

It's better to cross the line and suffer the consequences
than to stare at the line for the rest of your life.

Love stories, doesnt come about, like how fairy tales works, it may never be the ending we always wanted to hear. Cinderalla pass through stages of test and suffering than had a happy ending with the prince. But at least, it's Happy Ending, Happily ever after.

However in reality, it may not happen the way we want it to be.

The mark of a true crush,
Is that you fall in love first,
And grope for
reasons afterward.

Time may take us apart, that's true, but I will always be there for you.
You're in my heart, you'll be in my dreams, no matter the miles between.

-Many of us, fall in love, yet realise, it might be too deep to pull back in reality, you wake up thinking of the one you love, you heart skips a beat when he/she calls you, when you know he/she tears, your heart feels as if its shattered into a million pieces,when you saw him/her, you don't know if you should say " HI" or just "Smile", Deep down, all you wanna do, is keep quiet and give him/her a hug. Many of us wonder, why isn't love, as sweet as honey, as beautiful as fairy tales, the reason was, many of us would only cherish when they can't have it and yet knowing fairytales are just illusion. Love are like Magic, they are illusion, that makes you believe, fantasy do come true. Little girls believe in the clown that perform magics and make them happy, however, how about those dejected people, that is yearning for someone, to show them, at least the colour and meaning of their life. Love can't be brought by price, but we humans, can pay heavily for it. Thats the love we are talking about.

Loving someone is hard,
especially when you know they belong to someone else. However, if we realise, many of our sweetest memories, comes from the hardest love.

Somehow rather, i have experience many moments, that may stain my memories for the rest of my life, with hurt and tears, yet beautiful memories. When you fall in love, you realize, there will be many thing, you would do for the one, you love the most.

Perhaps one day,
you might see me the way I see you;
but for now, being as your friend
would have to sufficient.
`Seems familiar, or felt this way?

It's hard to wait around for something
you know it might never ever happen
but it's even harder when you know that it's all you want. And that is true love.When we look for the right person we always end up with the wrong one but when we just sit by the corner and wait, he comes along and shares the corner with you.

Wait for the boy who
will do anything to be your everything.

Without faith and hope you have nothing,
but with it, you have everything.

Silent Love~

If you love me, let me know.

2011-04-24T01:16:00.002+08:00

Accompanying me through the night was thoughts and memories.

Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do. Many times, i wonder, what is love, it's like ghost, everyone talks about love but yet rarely someone sees it. Love can't be brought by wealth, but we can pay heavily for it. Some memories are worth the pain, but some, left a scar in your life.

Most of the days, i wasn't happy.

I smile, I laugh, everyone knows

I Cried, alone is all i could say

Most people would ask, if I'm fine?

And yes i Do, I'm, but deep down in my heart, i wasn't that strong after all.

Babies and Children smile happily, when they have sweets

Simple.

Yet I, do not know my reason to smile whenever i smile.

I could hold on to everything.

But after all,when i reached a limit, i would let everything go.

Where there is Love, There is Pain & Sacrifices

I know, I ackowledge, but spare me tears, because i knew, it could easily drown you.

I don't believe in True Love, because, i haven seen one.

Silent Love -

Tears may be dried up, but the heart—never.

2011-04-18T02:14:00.003+08:00

(Photo Credits: Edmund & Richard)

www.edmundphoto.com

One makes mistakes; that is life. But it is never a mistake to have loved.

Life as we know -

Back to blogging, after stopping for such a long time. Been busy with Tons and tons of photoshoots recently and replying back countless of emails. Done one of my best photoshoot with Richard & Edmund , 7 hours of shoot at various location , not forgetting to credit Jordan Lim for his make up service that day. Awesome experience, will upload the pictures once i recieve (:

If you gonna engage professionals for your special day, feel free to contact them ya (:

Recent Life -

Finally back to modelling, re-building up my portfolios, trying out different photographers and their style, venturing into different themes.

Portfolio can be viewed at: http://www.modelmayhem.com/Sherlyn1989

Planning of shoots can be a hassle, so for any booking, please give me at least 2 weeks for me to prepare and to slot out a time slot.

As there is a large number of request for me to put out my schedule for shoot on my blog, here is the following shoots for the week.

Comfirm Shoots: Sat 23/04/2011 - Studio Shoot ( Morning Session )

Tentative Shoot: Shoots for blogshop online shopping

Full day shoot: Andy (Theme shoot)

Studio Shoots: 24/04/2011 (DV)

If time permits: Shoots with WJ

Cancel shoots on: 24/04/11 ( Outdoor shoots )

Exams,Exams,Exams-

Finally finshes my exams for RES, hopefully,

i could pass this exams( lower possibility but still , praying hard )

Soul Mates -

Thanks for being there for me always and the concern you've been giving me. Appreciated much. You've done all you could for me, althought i do have my own situations to handle as well. Never wanted you to be unhappy, stay happy always (:

Thanks lovelies for beeing there to support me physcially and mentally for all these while.

Health-

Have been falling ill recently, hence the number of shoots cancel, my apology. Hopefully things will get better in May (:

Love me or hate me, it doesn't matter. Because it doesnt benefit me.

If you can't be who i'm, stop ranting about me.

I'm exhausted, gonna pen down my blog post soon. Just to put down some details and information of what my reader or people around me have been asking for .

1) The photographer link and portfolio for my shoot (Picture above)

2) My Portfolio link and avaliable dates (Given)

Photographer : Edmund and Richard

Link: www.edmundphoto.com

Email: creative@edmundphoto.com

Specialist in: Wedding and special moment

(Please contact them with the above information, as i do not have complete details on what service they provide, so yep (: )

Good Night Earthlings (:

The past wasn't that fascinating when you realise

2011-03-13T22:25:00.002+08:00

It wasn't about love, it was about how it was before and what you want in life.
Year 2011 wasn't much an interesting start of life, however, trying to let moment and memories of year 2010 to stay in a place, where only good moments are frozen and be in part of my memories and the bad moments to disappear and never to happen again.

Ended my internship at Pan Pacific Orchard, i found a very interesting job in Chjimes for the year 2011, i took up real estate courses hoping for a better life.

I met up with my ex dearest and sort many issue and question i used to have in my heart and start a new chapter of life by improving on myself.

At different moments, i turn and look at my past memories, realising that what hurt most wasn't break ups, it was trying to piece out many broken pieces, realising, I'm wrong, experiencing painful cut every now and than, that it was all, caused partially by myself.

Relationship goes through the toughest patch ever, as it does not consist just me, but his past commitments, and at times, i felt mentally drain off, but these matter. I wish for a much more stable life.

Kind of lost who i really am, i miss how i used to be..

When you walk back to memories

2011-03-13T22:08:00.004+08:00

Browsing through my i-touch note pad, and notice i didn't post this blog entry of mine, 11 months ago, so decided to post it since it was written and it would be a waste to leave it alone.

This is how it goes

"Seeing your face today made me realise how weak I am, even thou I though I am strong and could handle everything..Why you came into my life when I needed you least, and you walked out of my life when I need you the most..

Funny to say that it wasn't me who walked out, it was you..Perhaps you walked out so in-order for a better life, but I was scared to fall in love again..

I used to think that we all make our own pathways in life, what brings happinness and sadness to our lives. After meeting you, I started believing in destiny.Things happens for a reason.I cannot figure out the reason yet.

I never really understood the meaning of letting go the loved one, and if it's meant to be it will come back..I tried to let you go, and you came back just to turn my world upside down..

First time I laid my eyes on you would never imagined that my heart would fall for you..Every moement we spent together I remembered like yesterday.Just staying in silence and just knowing by the look in both of our eyes that it is the best moment of our lives.Your whispering into my ear still echos and your tender touch still can be felt on my skin, your soft lips still felt on my lips..

I kept telling me how much i loved me, and you never took my words seriously, until today. Hoping today, with the way i said that, the way my voice reached your ears, the way my eyes filled with tears, hoping that you realise what i meant.

If I could, I would give all of me, risking everything just to stay next to you, just to hold you, and feel you even though that would mean I would never be able to do that again...

What hurts the most is that we both know what we want and how much we want it, we cannot have it.

Do you still keep believing and not giving up?
Or just live with the pain and questioning yourself on what it is?

Dated on: Year 2010

2010-10-30T15:29:00.002+08:00

I thought it was forgotten , till I hear your name. It gives my heart a little squeeze and I felt the pain . I look back at the journey , and felt a difference , I was smiling back than but tearing badly in my fragile heart. I mention about you and I almost cried. But where were you , at this point. I need you to be just mine . Nothing much to make me fine . I need your simple hug to bring me life. And all I need was you to make me fine.

Why wasn't you here, when i need you the most. And something i wish, i've never known you before.You make me feel the existing of love, you made me felt special. But most of the time, i was left, yearning for you. Special changes rcently, and hopefully it is an ideal start for someone like you. Imy.

2010-09-04T18:50:00.002+08:00

Flashbacks , back to the place where i first fall for you. Knowing that it will never happen. But at least, it makes the rest of me felt loved. A moment with you is worth the times and moment i cried alone. Imy sweet ):

2010-08-14T23:42:00.003+08:00

Blinded with love, accepted every flaws of you, face the reality but knowing it's the impossible. I thought of letting go at times but my heart stopped me. Because I need your existence to keep my heart working . At times I'm left alone and what kept me going on was those moments with you. A moment with you is worth the times I tears alone.. Roll back time to the day when i first know you, were memories that could never be earse away.

Accompanying me throughout this 1 Month of attachment at Pan Pacific Orchard, was thoughts and memories. Sometimes people talks like how you do , sometimes people resemble you , sometimes people around happen to have the same name with you , but the question was , why not you ?? Was the cheerful and hyper sherlyn real , or it was just artificial . Than I realise, the only time I let my guts down was when you're around. My heart would become fragile, and my eyes would only looked at you and only you. One thing I'm sure of, you're someone I ever love, that much that I realize, I could only see my reflection in your eyes. I'm afraid to love fast, because it will leave fast. I thought it was just a mere thought, but I realize, it was something more than just love. Remembering every single things about you, missing the way you comfort me when I'm down, loving the hug when you embrace me, remembering the promise I gave you.. It's killing me, softly and painfully at times. Replaying that similar melody on my I touch , everyday, because it feels like you were beside me. I really miss you, someone like you that touched my heart. Without you knowing, you enter my life, becoming colors of my life but at the same time pain in my heart. Absence make the heart grow fonder, but it makes the rest of me lonely, very lonely.. Sherlyn misses you, deeply.. I fall for you, without me knowing, and that love was as precious as diamond.

In the world of lies, you're my truth.. But yet , the truth was hidden , in a place , that I could never find.. It wasn't that much of a sophiscated feeling, but back than , it's like the ranging emotions I would have, whenever I'm with you .. Tell me it wasn't true that i wasn't thinking of you .. But yet, right here standing was me , and all you were was standing there .. I misses you and everything about you .. Didn't you know about that ? Or chosen not to at the first place. Never wanna be upset again , because I know , it will never be the same again. Why would I fall for you, when all you could ever do, is turning away. Who would than explain those hug ? What is love to you ?

Written this entry quite sometime back, but did'nt post up on my blog. Somehow felt uncomfortable to do so. Days at Pacific Club was good, people were nice , guest were nice too. But at times, i would want to be alone, whenever i think of someone as special as you.

Time passes as fast i could believe. Been 3 Months after the Break Up with Bryan, glad that things have gone well with him and his new job, perhaps thats what it meant to be, " Perhaps it's better off this way " Thats how this phrase came about. Hope that a better girl will come by to walk him through this rough journey in life.

Thanks Vincent, for sending me to and fro, buying me dinner, revamping my room, tolerating my nonsence at times (:

2010-06-14T14:15:00.002+08:00

Some of the biggest challenges in relationships come from the fact that most people enter a relationship in order to get something. They're trying to find someone who's going to make them feel good. In reality, the only way a relationship will last is if you see your relationship as a place that you go to give, and not a place that you go to take. Little kindness and courtesies are so important. In relationships, the little things are the big things.Problems in relationship occur because each person is concentrating on what is missing in the other person.Some people enter our lives and leave almost instantly. Others stay, can forge such an impression on our heart and soul, we are changed forever. Sometimes i miss you abit too much each day but all you were, was standing there, while i'm waiting here.An argument is always about what has been made more important than the relationship.And that have been what i always wanted to tell you.All broken relationships can be traced back to broken agreements. You are someone in life, i would never wish to let go. And those memories, that i deem priceless.

Will be taking my TP at Ubi driving center tomorrow, 1:55pm. Pray hard that i would pass the first time round! Nervous..

Its easy to fall in love.

2010-06-09T23:22:00.002+08:00

Faith means belief in something concerning which doubt is theoretically possible.Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice but falling in love with you is something i had no control over.Days after days, i thought everything would be alright.Some people says " The ones that u love the most are usually the ones that hurt u the most." But i can't agree to it, because, never once did you hurt me, but often i wish i've the opportunity, to be with you.Love is the triumph of imagination over intelligence.A very small degree of hope is sufficient to cause the birth of love.And till these day, i hope for nothing but wishing that you're fine, wishing that you're happy, wishing that you could smile, every single day even if i'm not the reason. Love is blind, and i'm blinded by you. Maybe you knew since day 1, that i've been falling for you, deeply each day. I wish to ignore your existance at times,but i can't get you off my mind. At all.There is no remedy for love but to love more. Is there such a thing as lost love? When you lose something it still has the potential to be found but when love is lost you may never find it again.It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.Better never to have met u in my dream than to wake and reach for your hands and you're not there. Love itself is as much of an object as an obsession, everybody wants it everybody seeks it, but few ever achieve it, those who do, will cherish it, be lost in it & among all, will never...never forget it. The human heart knows thing the eyes cant see,and feels the things the mind cant understand.but if love is just a word, then why does it
hurt so much when you find it is not there?It takes only a min to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. And perhaps i would take a life time, to forget someone like you, if i would ever want to.Love is like the truth, sometimes it prevails, sometimes it hurts. And it could really hurt someone, badly..

Its easy to fall in love. The hard part is finding someone to catch u.

Falling deeply

2010-06-04T23:59:00.004+08:00

Love, like a river, will cut a new path whenever it meets an obstacle. And the biggest obstacle of love is the fear of not being loved.. Someone once told me, Love is hard to find,but once you find it you won't regret it. To be your friend was all I ever wanted to be your lover was all I ever dreamed. Because Love is all the emotions of the world into one.

"Once upon a time I was falling in love, but now I'm only falling apart." Words & hearts should be handled with care... For words when spoken & hearts when broken are the hardest things 2 repair.And those were the days, where i felt loved but yet, it's silently tearing me out, like how a ragged doll is distroy.The greatest pain that comes from love is loving someone you can never have. And all i want, was just a little of your time, and a little of your love.Trying to forget my love for you is like trying to remember someone that i never knew. The hardest part of loving someone is knowing when to let go, & knowing when to say goodbye. In the arithmetic of love, 1+1= Everything & 2-1=Nothing .

I love you,
When ever I saw you,
You would put a smile on my face,
You cheered me up,
When I was feeling down.. And that is what makes me, falling for you everytime i sees you.

Wishing to the stars, hoping that you were here. And never did i realise, you stays a very important part in my life. Because, my love for you, have never decrease, but increasing each day. And more when i see you.And for that i'm sure, i could never find this special feeling, ever with any other guys out there.

It's hurting my heart, as, i'm really missing you , right now, this moment .

- Shattered -

2010-05-28T23:52:00.004+08:00

Shane: Take care of your hand! Hope you recover soon yea!

Joanna: Update you more about everything real soon babe ! Miss ya la dearie !

2010-05-28T23:32:00.002+08:00

Many things to update in blog recently.

27/05/2010

Finally get to go school by Bus today, woke up late despite frequent morning calls by Vince. Got on to Msn and receive a shocking news, but well it does not matter to me anyway. Rush my ass down to class. Finally got back Business communication paper, got a 31/40 for the test, well done sherlyn (: Vincent was quite sweet because he actually came down earlier despite that i might end of late from class, to fetch me. Skip a lesson to go off and headed to have dinner at Katong than went home. Took a quick bath and went down to meet Bryan, had some talk, perhaps it's better off this way, anw thanks Bryan, for the pen(: Both me & Vincent waited for Priscilla to head home than went out for supper together. Drove us to Mac at Kallang and spent quite some time there. It was a pretty tiring day i guess, exhausted ..

( Blog was written only on 28/05/2010, late delay )

28/05/2010

It's public holiday! Finally a good rest .. Woke up around 9am as Vincent brought us Prawn Noodles from joo chiat, that require at least an 1 hour wait ! Spend time munching on snacks and talking among 3 of us and decided to go for a swim at his house. Bring my 2 Lovelies down for some water splashing time. Feel so sweet when Kaylen hug me <3>

Went over to Katong for dinner with Vincent & Pris, than drove down to parkway to get Ice cream as everyone is craving for it. As usual, bickering among Pris & Vince. Went to get ice cream from scoopz and headed to Gaint, getting grocery to prepare for tomorrow breakfast for both of them! Vince actually says he is excited about the breakfast i'm cooking! Perhaps it may not be edible! It's a long and tiring day today. But i'm very happy. Very very happy (:

Tonight gonna be a good good night, because i can sleep well i guess (:

What he doesn't know

2010-05-26T23:43:00.004+08:00

I thought everything would be fine.

I thought it would be gotten over.

I thought life would better off without those memories.

I thought of everything i could, but never did i thought, after much attempt, it still feel weird.

Never know someone like you would make my heart skip a beat, for everytime i see you.

Never know that i fall so deeply into you, till the day i realise, it was too deep to hold back.

I sat back and thought, would things be different if i tell you how i feel.

And realise, it's too late.

Trying my means to let all memories of us go.

Memories when you first hug me

Memories when you first call me..

Memories of the days you accompany me even when you're working.

Trying to be a little more than just a friends..

Trying to deny the fact when people asked about my feelings for you.
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When I first saw you
I looked into your eyes,
Saw a glow about you
I loved all that I could see

I love to see your smile
Spread across your face
But when it does seem to fade
My heart stars to ache

I like to hear you speak
Your voice brings me chills
It puts me in a crazy setting
All starts to haze

Whenever I think of you
I drift to a far off place
Where anything could happen
Where I could love you with no restriction

I didn't know what to say
I didn't know how to put it
So I tried to hide it
But it can't be concealed any longer

I'll try to say it here and now
I'll try to tell you how I feel
I love you with all my heart
Knowing that the love will never return....

There is many things in life, he'll never know, but somehow, it remains in a part of my heart.

What he doesn't know
Is that I love him in my heart
I knew that he was special
I could tell right from the start

What he doesn't know
Is that when I close my eyes
All I can see is his image
As he slowly passes by

What he doesn’t know
Is that I remember every word
Every single thing he says
Everything I've heard

What he doesn't know
Is that I dream of him at night
And what I really long for,
Is for him to be in my sight

What he doesn't know
Is that I long for him to say
Just one single word
Anything, so I can stay

What he doesn't know
Is that I treasure all the time
Every minute that I’m with him
Seems like a lifetime in my mind

What he doesn't know
Is that we’re so far apart
I wish that he knew
Because It’s tearing at my heart

What he doesn't know
Is that I long to see him smile
To be with him just once
To make this all worth while

What he doesn't know
Is that every time I find him
He becomes more desirable
And always very kind

What he doesn't know
Is all of the pain I feel
Because keeping this from him
Makes it all too real

What he doesn't know
Is that I want to hold him tight
Keep him close to me
To make everything alright

What he doesn't know
Is that everything he said
Repeats over, and over
As I replay it in my head

What he doesn't know
Is what I’ll never say
Everything I thought of
I threw it all away

What he doesn't know
Is everything I hide
Afraid of what he’ll think
I keep it all inside

The only way a cruch could end, is to be crushed by your crush.Should I smile because we're friends or cry because that's all we'll ever be?

- Sherlyn, it's her life -

2010-05-26T23:18:00.002+08:00

Photo of the day ( As per request by my dearest krystal )

It's the puppy day

2010-05-21T12:15:00.006+08:00

There you go. Casper baby after his grooming, Agreeable that he resemble Shane. Fetch Casper at Shane's House than Vinc fetch us down to Pearl's Pet shop, Pet Avenue I think. Accompany Casper through his grooming, and waited for Shane to fetch him. Spend some time playing with Max baby while waiting for Casper baby.

Headed down to Scotts Road with pris and Vinc as Pris wanted to purchase her uniform, than went to have our early dinner at Katong. Went home after dinner as Pris needs to get ready for her Basic theory test at Ubi Driving Centre than send her down for her test. Spend some time clearing Vinc Car as it's sooo Messy! Althought she failed , but i believe she will pass in the next round. Headed to Parkway to have our Dinner at ajisen with Max baby , Vinc & Pris, A bad experience there. Food was served Cold, Rats fighting on the ceiling floor as we could hear the squeaking so clearly * Hair stand* , Poor service..

Vinc is in the mist of planning for his pet shop that he gonna open soon, still looking for shop location around the East area. More sophiscated service and personalise service for the customers, Will update more in time to come !! Took many picture with Max baby !! Love love

-Sherlyn loves Max`Kiki`Eliza`Casper baby <3

It's gonna be a long long but yet a happy day tomorrow (:

2010-05-20T00:29:00.002+08:00

Gonna be a long long day tomorrow.

Gotta wake up early in the morning for school tomorrow, head to school for lesson, gonna leave school around 2 plus to fetch Casper ( Shane's precious puppy ) for his grooming at Fursnip than head to Scotts road perhaps to collect my sister uniform while waiting for baby Casper to be done for his grooming and end of with accompany sister for her Basic theory test at Ubi Driving Centre. Good to occupy my time, in order for me to stop thinking for other stuff (:

Had a long day today, woke up early as Vinc reached around 9, to give baby Eliza her daily dosage of cleaning and medication, than bring me for lunch before he send me to my driving school for driving lesson. Headed down to River Valley to fetch Kiki ( Vinc's puppy ) and down to katong to get some of vinc stuff. Bring the 2 precious ( Max & Kiki ) back to vinc house to bath to keep them clean.. Brought the 2 sweetie out today, Finally~ Felt so sweet (:

Vry very tired while writing this entry.. Good night people.. Gonna take tons of pictures with Casper!! Simply love dogs and puppy !! <3

Love <3

The end...

2010-05-18T23:11:00.002+08:00

No longer holding on to Hope and desire..

Nothing changes but you change.

So much of sweet talks in the past, that make me fall for you, at the end of the day, you're just like any of them that you once commented. As i read the message, i knew it gonna be the last, didn't reply, didn't call, didn't cry, but just stone-ing there, wonder if i'm fine.. Perhaps, i'm numb to these coldness.

My heart since than, turn into stone. Maybe,it's meant to be like this way.

The worst feeling in the world is giving all the love you have

and knowing it will never be returned..Sometimes the person you really need is the one you didn't think you wanted.Me, I'm scared of everything, I'm scared of who I am, what I saw, what I did, but most of all I am scared of walking out of this door and no feeling for the rest of my life, the way I feel when I'm with you.If you're going to make me cry, at least be there to wipe away the tears, but i doubt so..Everyone tells me I should forget about you, you don't deserve me. They're right, you don't deserve me, but my heart once think that, she deserve you.Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.It's hard,painful but it's an experience i ought to learn.. Learning to let go..It takes a couple seconds to say Hello, but forever to say Goodbye..I wonder, when you look into my eyes and watch my heart shatter, does it break your heart too, even crack it a little bit? I doubt so..I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy, I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry, I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me - I’m going to smile.A great love? It's when you shed tears for him but still you care for him. It's when he ignored you but you still long for him. It's when he starts loving another, and yet you manage a smile and find the courage to say "I'm happy for you."And i guess, that would be me..

Maybe it's time to say goodbye..

I guess this gonna be the last entry for this person.

(Deciding if i should give Shi kai away ): Because it remains me of the memories)

痴心绝对 Chrous - Shane`

2010-05-12T16:07:00.005+08:00

Credit to Vincent, who took this video.

It's my first video post on My Blog (=

Enjoy( Even though it's jus 18 Sec) (:

-Love,Sherlyn -

You're someone in life i would never want to lose

2010-05-12T10:23:00.004+08:00

Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt, but it's the only way to live life completely. I told someone today " Love is like life. Not everything is easy, not every road brings happiness, but if we don't give up on life then why should we give up on love ". As long as we try, it'll be alright. What's meant to be will always find a way. Some people asked , Destiny is what it is ... or is it what we make it to be?" Everyone have their own special little answer, in a part of the heart.Always remember that through the turmoil love may bring, the heart sees what the eyes cannot.You'll be surprised to know how far you can go from the point where you thought it was the end.The greatest ironies of life: having the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right, and finding out that you love someone after that person walks out of your sight ....To the one i love, Love me for a second, and I will make that second last a lifetime!Take a look at what you have. Think of all you did to get it. Remember it only takes one second to lose ..

You were my strength when I was weak, you were my voice when I couldn't speak, you were my eyes when I couldn't see; you saw the best there was in me.You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel. I feel you, every now and than.Love happens whether you want it to or not. Don't try to control it. I like doing little things for you.And the way you talk to me.. I love the small talks and the way you look at me..I miss you, every time when you're gone and miss you more even when you're with me..he most precious love occurs without choice, and when you least expect it.To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken, because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing. I've risk and even if my risk fails, i don't regret.We never lose by loving but we always lose by holding back.. To the world you may only be one person, but to one person you may be the world.. And that person, is me. I wanna you to be my sweetest hello and hardest goodbye. I'm staring to miss you again.

Never know if you gonna read this because you rarely have time for yourself.But i know, this is specially for you. Imy ..

2010-05-11T17:05:00.000+08:00

It's been so long I had a good sleep. Had night mare initially but it turn up to be extreme sweet after that.. Dreamt of someone that I don't wanna lose,and everything was really nice, forgotten an impt part in the dream , but it's a good thing though , dream that we forgotten will come true .. The kiss was awesome ( on the dream ) , the hug was priceless just like the way you first hug me in ratchada .. I still remember the day and dates clearly .. I know that I'm missing you , abit too much each day .. Joanna knows me well, because from day 1 I fall for you, she have been the one encourging me through this journey even with the negative comment from the others.. The way I smile when I recieve a call / text from you (: she seen it all .. Thanks sweetheart for walking through this uneven path with me !!

Gonna see you tonight( If there is no changes =_=" )..Tonight it would be only you and just you in my mind ..
In fact , everyday. I remember every word you once said to me ..
Let your hug bring me away again (: Hearing akon - right now while typing this part of entry in dylan's car, on the way to medical appointment ... It's Shane 1st R&B song I heard him singing .. First song I heard him singing for me was ( shi Jie Wei yi de ni ) ..

Walking through this path ....

2010-05-10T18:33:00.004+08:00

Back to school again , woke up at 8 to wake Darren up , went back to sleep for awhile than headed to have my shower and prepare to meet Darren , together with pris , we took a bus over to bukit batok as school is over there and Darren's work place is near there too .. People always adore the one that forget them and forget the one that adore them .. Some how , I find what Alvin say true , of all guys he've seen before, he still thinks that Andrew is the one for me, yet i left him alone, feeding on those pain .. I've yet till now , apologised for hurting you .. Andrew, I'm sorry .... Find a better girl alright.

I can't expect to be the same anymore. No longer that desire to hold it strong. Just walking through this path, not crying anymore , not being angry anymore .. But just let it goes with the flow.. Reason being , what is yours , no matter what you do , it will come back to you.. I forgive, I forget not because of anything , at least I've answer to myself with no regret...

Really thanks Joanna darling , Vin , Ber, Ken , Roy , Dylan,Wayne for accompanying me through these days .. Appreciated ..

Shane told me of the description for the hairstyle he told me that night, asking me to have a try .. Will show my hairstylist the description when I go over !! I gonna have a new new look again .. Missing someone while typing this in class ... Guess he should be sleeping right now (:

2010-05-09T18:52:00.000+08:00

As I walk along the path way , I thought of " if I've never met him , what would be like now ?? " would I still be holding on to the uncertain future or would I start to change to my life style ?? This special someone have the ability to make me fall so deeply with him, the ability to make my heart skip a beat every time I sees him. It's been so long I've find back this special feeling , in the road of getting this special feeling , the road was uneven , bumps and corners everywhere , it brings me a combination of happiness , safeness , tears , anxiety and more .. There are times I thought giving up would be a better option , but thinking back on how much I go through , passing each and everyday , and those moments we share , the idea of giving up become my sole supporter , trying to be my best for him .. Always believe , success only comes to those who try and do their best and not those who choose giving up as their option .. In this learning journey of love , I learn to cherish, cherishing every moments I've , with the one I treasure .. Looking forward to the day I could be with him again , the priceless hug, and the way look into my eyes, I don't know how to put this feelings into words but I know , it's something that I would always remember .. I wish your eyes could tell me everything in your heart.. But for sure I know , there is something in the way you look at me , but I never know what could that be , I feel different in your eyes , every time , every moment.. Music is my life and you're just like those melody in my life , you make me smile, you touch my heart, you made me feel loved but yet you can be like the saddest song that always brings me to the deepest thought , but these are moments , that I realise, no matter how things goes , I still want you to be in my life. It's so much to know , know how my heart feel.. Wishing that you could walk with me , till the end of the our journey in life...

You may not believe on what you see , but I know , you knew all along from day 1 , I've been falling deeply , to you as the days goes by .. At times , I try to make it seems that I don't care and bothered much , but deeply , I care Little too much each day..

Woke up early today to go for driving practical lesson , reached ard 8:05 , pretty early , as lesson starts at 8:30.. Toss and turn around the entire night, can't sleep fir nuts .. Insomnia I guess .. I need a little time away , a little surprise to spark up my bored life .. School,projects,work,driving,matters of the heart,family ......

After all that we been through , i realise that you're not just the guy next door, you're indifferent , you invade into my heart and left apart of you in me .. Time and time again , I wish I could know you , a little earlier each day.. Someone who lives in my heart, you're the someone in life I never wish to let go, you're the someone that l love .. When people out there hurt me , I knew you were just a text away .. All these was enough..

Another day (:

Woke up in the morning, preparing for driving lesson , somehow my instinct leads me there , ah , because Shane commented on one of my wall post at his profile, the question was on what would he dislikes the most , and I answer : he dislikes his hair being screwed up ! And if he can't sing, because that's his passion baby .. Oh yea , I dreamt if Shane's puppy yesterday !! Casper !!

Had a 3 hour drive today around ubi to tampines , than back to home , last few minutes was raining .. Went home and take a rest till Ber came my house , than headed to fetch xiao si from grooming parlour , than headed hm.. Gulp down a glass of henessay vsop, texting someone at the same time, resting .. Maybe meeting Mr. Someone later ( confidential ) after his work ..

Well what Bernard say is true , don't let unnecessary hints bother me too much.. Starting a new chapter of life, a brand new Sherlyn (: I've finally realise , the true image of humans , can be hurtful at times.. But I'm happy with what I have now , right now , this moment .. Let it be .. Life is short , stay happy than live a life without regrets .. I've grown to become Little wiser each day , and no matter how much I fall , I still stand strong.. Forgive and forget , compromise and toleration , a word i stand strong on .. Tired of people that create issues out there, just want to be peaceful , live a life , happily ... Let the past , be the past .. I need a life (:

Once again, My confession

2010-05-06T14:38:00.000+08:00

I still like you for who you're , I'm attracted to your passion on what you're doing .. I realise that I can't seems to get your image of my mind, because everybody knows your existence in my life, and have been constantly commenting on you and what actually attracted me to you.. It's clear that , I haven gave up on you, no matter what happen ahead,what restriction ahead .. Maybe it's true, that I'm falling deeply for you.. Would things be different if I were to let you know, that I really love you, I can't see myself , because all I could ever see was you and the only time I see my shadow, is through your charming eyes.. Whenever I talk about you, a smile would certainly light up on my face .. Imy once again ...

Writing this entry while I'm in chef Adrian lectures , plan out my events projects and distributed to my members , menu planning , kitchen organisation projects is lessen down as chef cut down on several areas to make it easier .. Chef say something today , that I guess makes me feel better , " a chef would always go around to different place to experience and learn for a better " Bryan have been quite busy , but I guess after thinking through yesterday night , I just let everything be like how it is.. Ken is right , by worrying day and night of him over working his body , it does not benefit me in anyway.. I guess Bryan is right too, this is how he is , and how he want things to be done .. So I shall just let him be ... Finally let down this heavy stone on my back , shall pack my day fully everyday , not gonna think of it anymore.. Driving lesson every wed,sat,sun , ratchada - not now , projects- every day , gonna sleep early everyday and to pack my room , not forgetting to compose the music for the song that Shane's compose ,abit hard but I try as promise (:

Slept abit and wake up to use Alvin laptop , to see what's on facebook and my blog.. Al thought constant nagging from him to stop viewing " someone dearest" facebook ... Will be heading home after school as I'm still feeling unwell , headache and back ache causing by the drowsiness by the medication I took in the morning.. Fever not yet subside ...

I will always wait, till the day I could see you again .. I guess I can't meet him again .... Cos , busy at work ...

Posted this entry after so long. So the dates maybe wrong (:

-Love, Sherlyn-

2010-05-05T23:16:00.002+08:00

My friends are always telling me to move on, to give up.
But why? Why should I?
They don't see you the way that I see you.
They don't look into your eyes and see the world.
Why would they understand?
They can't possibly imagine what it means to look at your best friend and see all their hopes and dreams come true.
I wish for once, just once,they could walk a mile in my shoes.
But they wouldn't need to walk that far,
they would just take one step and suddenly,
they would take back every bit of'getting over you'advice they had ever given me and realize you're my life, you were meant for me,and that moving on or giving up is simply not an option.
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Heavy hearts, like heavy clouds in the sky,
are best relieved by the letting of a little water.
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Don't ask me why, i wish to tell you i'm fine everytime you look and me and ask me how have things been doing for me. But everytime i would say softly in my heart, that i'm not fine when you turn back . I want to see you, suddenly, but i know it's impossible. I still remember what you once told me, not to drink when i'm upset/sorrow because it make me feel worst..I promised you, i would only drink, when you're around. I wish to hold you tight tonight, and every other night.. imy.. This post, is meant for you and only you.

2010-05-05T23:05:00.001+08:00

Let this be the last drop of tears..

At least i know, i've tried..

Another night without you ...

2010-05-05T18:52:00.001+08:00

Tossing and turning throughout the night , missing the way you look at me , missing the way you hold me on, missing your concern and everything you've with me.. Those moment is precious , it's eternal , it's something that keeps me going .. I never know that I would fall so deeply for you, no matter how imperfect you're .. You make me yearn for your love, you rise me up and make me fall at times... But still , it don't change my feelings for you... Absence makes the heart grow fonder , but make the rest of me feel lonely .. Every of your little gesture , make me feel like no tomorrow , your call, text or your accompany when you're free ... And for everything I do , the only person that came across my Mind, was you , beloved ... Many may say, it's something that it's hard to predict, but I know , you're someone in life that I dint wanna let go.. You're my piece of note , to complete the song ... The saddest song are often fill with the deepest thought, and it left me wondering at times ... I want to be the bright star in that dark sky of your .. Never want you to be upset , and as days pass by , i wish that you're fine.. No more injury because every time you hurt yourself , i feel the pain too ... All I wish for , is to see you smile , for every time I see you .. I will wait , till the day I could hold you tight , without any barrier any restriction, imy ):
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First day of driving lesson today , reached ubi driving centre at 10am , first lesson was moderate , just abit scary , because it's the first time I operate on a car , drive around the circuit for 7 to 8 times , kind of weird but yea, hope every session would be smooth sailing for me.. Hopefully I would be able to pass my tp on June 15 , than get a car within 1 year (; pop a halls honey flavor candy before hand into my mouth and start concentrating on learning to drive a car.. Motivation to learn driving today mainly are from my mum , Ken & ken's mummy .. Wonder what Bryan's thinking at that point of time .. He have been busy these days, even during his off days, he is also occupied by work.. Getting use to this kind of lifestyle gradually , can't help it , he have already mention that he's a workaholics , although I find no worth doing that much yet little pay back , no matter what , I will do my best to support him na .. Bryan, hope that you won't have any things on for this coming Friday .. Can't wish only hope..
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It's been so long , I've miss someone so deeply , the feeling is true , purer than water , precious like diamond .. 3 more days to 8 may .. Hopefully someone remember this day (:

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Sherlyn is missing the love of her life ):

It's Monday again ...

2010-05-03T23:56:00.001+08:00

It's a messy day today , firstly I was late for lecture, cab down to school, than while walking up the stairs , saw Alvin and group, than I realise that events and convention lecture is cancel, did not tag along to watch iron man 2 with them , sat in the library for a while , and I receive another call from Alvin . He says " all lesson cancel , except business statistic " , than I decided to skip the class and headed somewhere.

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In the dilemma to decide if I should call Bryan , as I was suppose to meet him after class, but still he woke up and headed to prepare to meet me at bugis.. Thanks Bryan (: headed to accompany him to cut his hair, and I wonder why all hairstylist have the same kind of working pattern , they say the same words and same style... Felt kind of weird though.. Bryan says that I looked very white today !

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Well right after the haircut , dearest brings me to have my lunch at fish & co , always dote on me (: and right after lunch , headed to holiday inn for his interview .. Kind of tired now ): perhaps it's because of the scorching sun..

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A long pause before I wrote this part of my entry, watched ip man 2 with Bryan and his friend , it's the 3rd or 4 movie I watch with Bryan (: Had dinner with them before that , Bryan went carefour to get me yogurt , knowing it's good for me, afraid that I would get too lazy to stock up yogurt at home , he get me 2 container of it (:

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After sending me to the train station, he headed home... Spent my day very wisely today (; Writing this entire entree at different interval , different place , different time while I'm free as Bryan is doing his stuff or when I'm alone .. Gonna post it when I'm home tonight..I'm tired ): my room seems empty tonight, no nagging and no one to pester me to sleep early ...

Feel so quiet, I miss the voice.. Gonna rest for the night ... Loves (:

2010-04-26T23:56:00.000+08:00

25/04/2010

Its Monday again ! Bryan's off day .. Finishes class around 5pm headed to singpore general hospital with Bryan, he accompanied me over to visit my grandma , spend quite sometime there while Bryan talk to my uncle at some point of time , and all I could do , is to hold granny hands and pat her back . After the visit , went over to city hall with bryan , but end up having our dinner at marina, cafe cartel , Bryan's steak wasn't well cook , my fish and chips was abit too oily , but overall was alright .. After dinner , we head to hong kong cafe for desert , had mango sago or something like that and went home after that .. Enjoyed myself that day , and look forward for more dates (:

26/04/2010

Its a long long day for me, slept through the entire day in class , went out for lunch with Alvin,Chris, royston at the industrial canteen... Finishes class at 4pm , headed to take a train to enous than went to office to do something . Headed out for dinner with mum and her friend at macperson and went home after that. Bryan came home around 12 . Slept very late that night, thought over some stuff and decides to do what I'm suppose to do, perhaps, Bryan is right, I should have let him know, how I really feel for him, in the past. And let everything be history.. And also to be fair to those, that stand by me at my darkest time , ESP Bryan himself .. Although people out that have been ranting and being abit bitchy in words, but it does not matter. Don't think you know it all (: Well well well, Dream on (:

My life revolve around you, just you

2010-04-25T23:56:00.000+08:00

You're like my addiction, someone that I can't stop thinking and desire for.. If only you were here... Tried to keep my mind blank to focus on what I should do, but the only thing left on my mind , was your image , your voice and everything that belongs to you.. I wonder what makes you so special , I wonder what makes me miss you , that much I am sure of, it's so true ... You may not be someone to everybody , but for once, I'm sure , you're someone important to me . Everything minute seems to pass so slowly when you're not around , and when you're , time seems to pass , like the speed of the bullet train in japan. Wishing time would stop for me, whenever you're around... Did you know, I really miss the way you look at me... How I wish dreams can turn into reality , because every night , I dreamt of you , and every night I see you in my dream .. I remember everything you said to me from the day I fall for you. You never know that you meant everything to me.. Imy ... Writing this entree in class, but will be posting it when i reach hme later..

Writing out all my thoughts because I wanna keep my mind blank , at least for once .. Missing you abit too much each days .. And I know , I'll always want to be there for you, if you need a listening ear. Imy .... You may not be the most perfect guy in the eyes of the crowd , but you've always been perfect in my eyes. Thanks for giving me this wonderful memories and moment, you may not know but I do mean alot to me.... Love <3

Baby love

2010-04-25T12:04:00.004+08:00

I never knew I could ever come by someone as special as you.
I never know that your touch works like magic,
I never know I fall for you and everything that belongs to you,
but there is one thing for I'm sure that I clearly know,
it's this feeling and sparks that create a new me.

Ive never felt this way before,
I've never feel so carefree before,
and as I look in your eyes ,
i felt the ranging emotion reaction running through my blood ,
left me hoping to have you more.
You make me feel so love, but yet,
I knew , everything might just appear to be superficial .

Looking around those lighting's ,
I felt like part of them,
wishing to be the one that bring your life into a spectrum of colours
just like how they shine you when you're upon stage

And when once again ,
I look into your eyes ,
trying to let you know,
baby, you're just the one I've been looking for.
And one day would you ever know,
I've been waiting for, waiting for the day you say ,
baby I love you. And yes baby, it will be you and just you.

( 3rd lyric - baby love )
Done this lyric sometime back in March, and decided to post it up. Any Composer up there could help me to make it into a tune! No inspiration yet (: Will edit to make it better...

Someone who lives in my heart

2010-04-24T18:59:00.004+08:00

Nothing makes tonight as special because of your appearance in my life once again.

It's the feeling I've been searching for, Perhaps it may seems nothing sophisticated, but to me, it's these that keeps me going on.. You'll never know how important you stands in my life, The moments were what that keeps me going these days. At the darkest point of my life, your appearance brighten up my life.Many things may not seems as it is to you , but it means alot to me. At times, i wish you were here, At times, i wish i'm there with you. At times i wish you could obtain the ability to look into my heart, take a look at how significant you're in my heart. I thanks heaven, for the chance to meet an angel like you, And when i miss you, all i have to do, is to look into my heart and i would feel one step closer to you. I've lost this special feeling 2 years back, and never once found it back, until the day i found your existance on this planet, we name Earth. You're the one that make my heart skip a beat whenever i see you, you're the one that makes me go soft whenever i talk to you, no matter how strong i can be when you're not around. You make me tears when i feel helpless and lonely. There maybe many people around me, but all i want is, you and only you. You're someone i would never want to lose, someone that plant me moments that i can never get from anyone out there, Memories that can't be purchase with any price. I miss you, alittle too much, a little too little each day. So near, yet so far. Imy...

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Its this feeling,i've been searching for

2010-04-23T04:35:00.000+08:00

Met up with Alvin and gang for dinner, while waiting for zi xiang from toilet at herren, saw someone so familiar, wearing a pink checkered shirt and a black jeans walking towards my direction, was Shane. First Time seeing him under bright light. Been sometimes i saw him, and i think he's skinner than before. Although he claims that it's just illusion, because of the colour he's wearing (: Walked to Ratchada for awhile, as reservation is under my name, thanks Eva for helping me with the reservation, despite so late notice .. Zi xiang was with me first as Alvin went with his Girlfriend to do some stuff and to bring Yi xiang to the place. Ironically, everyone was telling me " Shane's working today " haha, and i replied " Yea yea, i know, saw him before i came (: " Well entertain by Andrew , Eva and a few other girls .

Not long after Shane came by and talk to me. Did not want him to drink much and i didn't want to drink too, so he asked me to share a glass with him, but well i drank a sip only and he took away the glass from me, not wanting me to drink much. Left zi xiang alone, felt so bad.. Spent the remaining time catching up on how things have been going on for Shane himself, Heard from Shane that Casper ( His Cutie dog ) have grown up le. So wanna see Casper! I love Dogs! His First song was 爱恨难, Singing as good as ever.. Followed by Japanese&Canto Song if i did remember carefully. In the mean while, Alvin, his gf and Yi xiang came by, and not long after Shane's First set, he came by to my table for quite awhile, intro that dumb Alvin to him at that time. Talked to him for a while and decided to go off from there soon after he went off for his next set. Very nice of zx to send me down to the taxi stand, feeling a little emotional at that point of time, mix feeling.. Realising that i left my specs at the table, i went up again, wanting to take it and go off soon after I'm done getting my stuff, but coincidentally, it's the ending of one female singer and next was him. Its fate i guess, that is playing the trick. Stayed till he finishes his song and went off.

Went home after that, was exhausted, Bryan came over my place, helped him to get his golden hair dye to black and slept after i'm done with everything..

It's this feeling, that i've been waiting for..

Just sherlyn's life

2010-04-22T17:49:00.000+08:00

Woke up exceptionally late today , but still manage to get into lesson on time . Finishes class early , so decided to visit Ken's mum today for awhile before I head home, since it's not very far from my school as i won't be going to the house party on sat .. Brought his mum her fave tea (: Did not stay for dinner even though I was asked to. Nothing changes at their house , perhaps a little more sophisticated , surprise to see auntie Rita there..

Took 506 home after I left his house and writing today's blog entree while I'm in the bus. Bus seems empty today, the road seems clear if traffic... Everything seems pretty good today, although someone write something bitchy at my tag board .. Wondering why people these days likes to pretend to be mystery in others websites, this annymous person has wrote on my tag board for the second time, how childish it can be though . Whoever you're , wake up your idea man .. Patrick , thanks for writing that for me (: but I guess there is no point telling, well Cos it's not the first time na.. I will just tolerate all these bull shit ..

Wanted to buy the hair dye Bryan asked me to look for today , but i didn't because have some stuff to do, will do it tomorrow after my class.. It's been quite sometime I dye my hair though , last time was done by Adrian at JYJY ..

Had a talk with Bryan yesterday as it's been sometime I call him after his work to accompany him home, and also I finally know what Cherline actually mean by the conversation, well it's true but I'm not really affected by it .. It does not matter to me as it's not important to me.. All the while I thought it was Mr S, that's why it makes me so curious , but it's not , so nothing interesting .. I'm exhausted , feel like sleeping now .. Reaching home real soon , Bryan gonna go for interview at holiday inn on Monday , wish him the very best (: will do his resume tonight .. And help him to get his hair colour black tomorrow, i try.

Missing someone now :p

Loves,

2010-04-21T18:45:00.006+08:00

Meet up with Kim yong and his friend Veron yesterday, enjoy myself..

Shane went missing.lol... haha.

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It's a painful day for me!!

Firstly, I'm still sick, to make it worst i sprained my feet and thirdly its a long busy day..

Met up with Alvin at Eunos at 10:30am but he was late so left eunos at 10:45am,

Went over to Pan Pacific Orchard to have my contract sign for intern ship aftermath struggle to walk over to Far East and get a pair of shoe, but it don't really help much in reducing my pain and walk along orchard road while waiting for the time to pass with Kath & Alvin.

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Headed to Singapore Expo for Food Hotel Asia 2010 with them to meet up with the rest, We reached at 2pm and went in at almost 3:30pm.. Nth special from the previous FHA i went too, so just took a glance and capture some pictures, mostly were the pastries products that i took, hope Bryan would like it thought. It's raining heavily over at my end at that point of time.

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Exhausted after a long day of walking under the scorching Sun, making me so restless.. I need a rest man! Can't stand it, haven been resting well the last few nights..

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Cherline asked: " What would you feel if you knew that your boyfriend ex gf spend a night at the same roof together?? "

Sherlyn replied: " I don't know, depends on who is my boyfriend!! If i cherish him, than i would ask, if not i don't bother, who cares anyway even if they have something on. It doesn't matter. "

Cherline asked: " What if its Mr S ?"

Sherlyn replied: If ever he becomes my boyfriend i certainly let you know!

But i guess, i would ask :p

Cherline asked: " What's if its my current bf "

Sherlyn replied: " Don't ask me!!!! hahahaha One is enough, no more questions ask! pls (: And.. Why are you asking me all these?

Cherline : Nth much just asked only. Ehhh, Somethings is better off when you don't know..

*She sound serious* But i don't know what she mean ):

But well, back to topic, it doesn't matter, because sometimes, blame it on fate babe.. I don't know what are you trying to tell me, but i knew, you know something..

But I'm curious , is it about Mr S??? Or?? I wish to know..Cher went out for dinner with Jay, I'm sorry was too tired to step out of the house :p Make it up to you next time!

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Ken reached Singapore already, i thought all flight were cancel, so did not expect him to be here that early, but surprisingly he came back from a short break at Bintan with mummy than back to Singapore yesterday night, left Europe few weeks before. Its been 6 Months i saw him, mummy and Kaiser Le, accord to him, daddy still stuck at Europe. Called up his mummy today because its been so long I've visited her. And its very nice of his mum to invite me for a dinner date with her & Ken . But.... Well see how things go..

Anw thanks for buying me the chocolate <3

As sweet as chocolate!

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* I know curiosity kills, but i really wish to know ): Pls Cherline!!! "

2010-04-20T00:13:00.002+08:00

Went over, but no reply. headed back home.

Last time i gonna do this..

Called up someone randomly while he's doing his work up =x

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Jeffrey came to pass me some stuff, well if you asked me, yep, appreciated that he kept everything i gave in order nicely in a box (: I thought i would only get my notebook , but i borrow the entire box instead.. Flashbacks . HEEE (: Eliza was like sooooo HAPPY seeing him..

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Gonna sleep real soon, exhausted after running around like a chicken without a head to get medication for someone that gone missing, waiting at some creepy places for someones reply and after walking under the rain in the evening !!

Pissed off, disappointed, wasting of effort.

Headaches,flu,fever !! Been falling sick recently.

2010-04-19T18:36:00.002+08:00

What's more lonely, than walking alone, in the rain??

Thinking about things in life.

Thinking about what i have in life...

But sadly, all it came across, was " Shouldn't i deserve a better life "

There again, it left me speechless.. I used to say things like " As long as you've tried, there should not be any regrets " Sad to say, I've many many regrets.. I wish i could turn back the time, and start all over again.. I wish i could have a clear view of what human want in life. I wish i could differentiate the Angel & the Devil.

Many things in life, you might have tried, tried that hard, and yet you can't achieve your goal.

Many times in life, you've done your best,yet you were left disappointed

Many moments in life, you wish you could stop the time and stay it that way..

Many memories in life, you wish you could turn them back into reality..

Life is ironical, people often forget the one that love them and remember the one that hurt them.

Honeymoon is always sweet at the beginning.

Love start with a kiss and often, it end with tears..

But till the day, when you actually grown up and think back, what do you really want in life.

Some may left with regrets , Some may accept the fact.

Why can't humans be more considerate?? Most of the time, they think for themselves, their benefits and often neglect those that have been standing by there for them..

What goes around, comes around and till than would you regret??

Don't forget, what you think you have, maybe gone just the next second. And till the day when you regret, it might be too late.. Know whats best for you.. Sometimes, you may think that you're strong enough to be alone, but think about it, God creates Different Gender for a reason.. Everything happens for a reason..

I never want to regret..

And what i could do, is to try my best in life,love and career.

And if i fail, at least i know i've tried..

Sherlyn is emoionally tired...

2010-04-16T19:45:00.002+08:00

Finally secured an internship opportunity at Pan Pacific Orchard.

Will be together with Kath, Alvin, Royston & Christopher.

Starting on the 5 July 2010, would be doing my 6 Months Intern at Front Office/Room Division. Finally , school life gonna end, and here's the start of attachment....

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Been going through up and down in life and is very exhausted by constant insomnia. How i wish time machine is invented, for me to travel back to the past and change somethings in life.. Someone, somehow, stays an important role in my life, that person may not realise, but still, i thanks heaven, for the chance to meet someone so special like you. Perhaps you may not know, but meeting you is certainly something, i would never regret.. You may be far to reach, but when i look into my heart, i saw that familiar you, because you've always been in my heart (:

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To that special someone:

You may not be everyone someone, but certainly you're someone special to me..

Those were the days.... Hoping for the day you bring me away from this hectic world...

Hoping for your tender, love and care. imy...

Been falling sick these days, stressful and tired..

Insomnia these days, little rest everyday..

I need a break ):

2010-04-14T11:09:00.004+08:00

Memories, something that is part of humans life..
I too have memories and moment, but i knew the differences between reality and dream.
Humans are wierd creature, Things that you can't possess, its always the sweetest and the most precious.Life is like a dream ,you always wake up to the truth and sometimes it sucks.What's better? A lie that draws a smile or the truth that draws a tear?

When it comes to affairs of love and hurt,
you have to wait for your heartto learn what your head already knows,then You can break free

The past may hurt, but you can either run from it...Or learn from it,the choice is up to you.Life is all about choices and opportunity cost, If you can't let go, than persue it, If you think its the best for you than go for it.

Love comes to those who still hope even though they've been disappointed,
to those who still believe even though they've been betrayed,
to those who still love even though they've been hurt before.

Tired of trying,
Sick of crying,
Yeah I'm smiling,
but inside I'm dying.

It may be a simple lie or truth that is hidden from me.
But what really hurt is, when you trust so much and someone just breaks it.

And i say yes

2010-04-09T22:11:00.004+08:00

Went out with sister today, had a very pleasant day i can say ever since holiday started. Went over to Leisure Park K box to spend our time. Its my sister Second time going there and First time singing there! Lol. Sang a heartful of 3 hours , well although not all sound Nice's but i can say my sister can really sing Korean song! Lol I'm proud of her man. And for me, i guess its

[ Wonderful Tonight ] . A song that bring me through happiness and tears. Headed to buy herbal drink for Bryan at Kalleng Leisure Park and headed down to his work place, pass it to Dareius and headed off. Had a random dinner at Ajisen with sister and took a bus over to my Office at Tg Katong. And right now, Blogging...

It's a long day at work for Bryan, and i hope he would be fine.. Well, i can't do anything much , except from getting him the drink. Wanted to get him Dinner, but yet don't know what would he prefer to have for dinner. Had a bad night yesterday, trying to sleep after spamming on Bryan's wall in Face book, hoping someone can help me to get him herbal drink. But well, think about it again, this is what i should have done, even if i knew i would not see even if i goes down. Wow, walking in to his cafe was quite hard for me *shy*, but still manage to do it (:

Gonna have my K Session with dearest sister soon :p

And for one thing I'm sure is to complete playing Wonderful Tonight on Piano by 1 Oct 2010 and do my recording for Wonderful Tonight in Vocal. Ask me why? I don't know too. This melody have been replaying on my mind.

2010-04-03T17:26:00.002+08:00

If things could ever be as easy and as simple as what i wish for it to be.. I tried to be the best, can you feel it? And at many times, i could only feel helpless. Seems like for every of my relationships, some passer by would drop me message in the tag board pretending to be a mystery person. Well, weird but doesn't matter.

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I woke up and I thought it would be better off being alone.
I walk through the sand on a starry starry night, remembering how we first met,
I miss the sweet hug when you embrace me,
I miss the charming voice of you that constantly ring through my mind,
I miss the way you look at me
and than I realise, I don't want to be alone.
I want nobody but just you .
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And I when back, wishing that you were there, and I look around .
Feeling the presence of you and yet I'm still alone.
And as I turn around,
I hear something familiar, a tune so true, and i saw the glamorous you.
You look around and charm the audience with you voice that heaven bethrol to you
but never once you look into my eyes.
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I find it ironical but I can't answer to myself,
and all I know , is you have drown me with your voice and everything in you.
I yearn for your embrace and long for your kiss.
And wishing that some day, you"ll be the one that I can hold on during the darkest time of my life and also the one that I could be with during the brightest time of my life.
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Wishing to be the Star that brighten up your dark sky.
And that's all I wish
Baby,for all I can say , i love you and yes I certainly do.
And alone I shall wait , forever it can be.
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Composition 2 (Lyric ) - I'm still alone ...
Wrote this lyric some time back, but did not make any music out of it, due to exams and school stuff. Gonna find inspiration for the tune soon (:
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2010-04-02T12:57:00.003+08:00

In every stage of life, there bound to be obstacles that we faced.

Our life revolve around, like how the ferries wheel rotate.

And in every time interval, we may experience something sweet, something bad, something sad or any other emotions we could think off. We can't be happy and satisfied always, because life itself is full of surprises, thats make our life as a human interesting. We always hope to delete those bad memories form our mind and retain only the good one. But if we thought back, we could actually learn from bad experience and improve from the good one to make it better. Life is like a box of chocolate, becasue you'll never know what you gonna get until you open the box.

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When the time passes, when the sparks dies off, when we move on to different stages in relationships, we feels diffently. Would you get bored of it and goes for something new, or would you make effort to create a new sparks making it unique again. Love is like a glass of soda in a long run, would you prefer to change to a glass of coke or would you rather put in lemon to the soda to make it taste different or perhaps adding in syrup to make it sweeter. We human chooses how our life can be, often we blame it on fate. We regret after we loose. But why not treasure and cherish before it goes off.

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6 Days to 8 April 2010 but i've yet do up anything. But well, i guess, i should start working on it. Nothing sophiscated i guess, but that's the least of what i could do to cheer him up.

Bryan, no matter whats your decision ,i'll still support you alright <3

2010-04-01T23:03:00.002+08:00

And if you ask me, baby

"Do i look alright?"

"And i say yes

You look wonderful Tonight "

You'll never know how it feels...

A moment to remember

2010-04-01T12:55:00.003+08:00

1 April, April Fool Day for the majority and moments for the minority. Just like roses, it seems so elegant when it's first recieved, than without proper storing condition, it started withering and soon it dies off. If its well treasured, it may become Dried roses but if its not, it would be thrown away. And soon after, it would be forgotten and replaced. Some remains as memories, some prefer to forget about it. And i prefer to remain as how it dies off, because, i knew i could'nt change the fact that, its already the past, which i rather move on.

Went to chill with Bryan on 29 March 2010 , waited for him at his work place and head down together. Aftermath, went over his place, well manage to bring his dog for a walk (: And spent some time together with him. Headed to my house for the night as we actually decided to go Sentosa the next day as its his off day. But well, i guess we're just purely too tired to even wake up in the morning. Insisted that i prefer Instant Noodle for breakfast, He cooked for me and than when to buy breakfast for himself and my sister . Rested for the whole day and decided to just head for a movie at Tampines Mall/Century Square. Manage to catch a Movie at 9:20pm at Tampines watching Kidnapper. Thumb up for the Movie (:

Hope Bryan Enjoy that show too (:

Never know how long can it be, but i shall than treasure the good moments and learn from the bad moments. Sometimes, trying to be perfect makes me fear of losing you more. A million " I love you" i may said before you know, this is certainly different..

"I would give up everything for one moment with you; for one moment is better than a lifetime of not knowing you Bryan (:"

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If you love me, let me know, If not , Let me go..

2010-03-30T01:10:00.005+08:00

Wanted to post something happy but i guess i put it to another day to blog. Sometimes, i find life ironical. Humans, always want the cream of the crop, Nothing but the best. And everyone start striving to be the best ,hoping to satisfied everything in life. Perfectionist you may say in words , but not all times works. Sometimes it's never on how much one indiviual tries, it's about fate and luck i presume. You can try to be the best and satisfied everyone, but there bound to be someone that you can't manage . Life wasn't fair from the start, but still everyone would ask " why me "

You can choose to ignore or to stand strong but at the end of the day, it still boils down to many other factor. Relationship come and goes but when you think that you've finally found the right one, something would just came by. Problems, Situations etc, Never ending. How much i could ever tried and assure , but it boils down to other's not just me. But i still stand strong, it's either All or Nothing. Try to bring me down, but i won't forget every steps that i walk through, alone. No one decides my life and who i want to be. Only myself. I thought i could have a break, and have a simple life, but well, its not as easy as it seems. And no matter how hard i try, i don't seems workable. Nothing gotta do with my relationship , but just people that i would hav to satisfied to have a better journey in my relationship. Sometimes, changes can solved everything. But at certain situation, it's either a Yes/No nor LIKE/Don't LIKE.

Sherlyn just wants a SIMPLE life, i emphasied.

Defination of a SIMPLE life : Nothing sophiscated,but pure,true.

If i put in my best but yet i still can't get it in life, It just simply means i did not try hard enough. Well, i will still try until the day that i'm exhausted and till you've given up on it.

I guess, because i know, i've tried and i won't regret.

Sherlyn is tired.. She needs a rest...

Drink,Drink and Drink again......

2010-03-25T21:44:00.003+08:00

( Credits to Impact Model Studio for this photo shoot)

Have been mugging for exams this few days, History paper was a real failure, i guess while Principle of Management and Business Maths were still manageable. Well , I've yet revise Micro Economic for tomorrow exams, and last that falls on a Saturday =_="

People come and goes, People changes as days goes by, but nevertheless still hoping that somethings remain constant as it is.A meeting between two beings who complete one another,who are made for each other, borders already,in my opinion,is a miracle. Sometimes you may look back to your past, wondering how wonderful things are between you & your ex lover, but always remember, the road to your current life and the border line between the past and the present.

True love is eternal.

If you think you were once in love but fell out of it,than it wasn't love you were in.

Treasure and Cherish , because you'll never know when you lose it.

You will know when you really love someone
When you want him to be happy even if his happiness means you are not a part of it. And well,no matter how much it takes to get me there, where i could play a bigger part in your life, i would try all my means to do so. Love is a moment that lasts forever... I looked at the path and i know it gonna be uneven. The obstacles ahead seems tough to walk, but still, i would walk this through and prove that nothing is impossible, Even if i were to walk alone. I will.

Something for Mr Lim, Bryan

Well, i don't know how to put my words across in messages and conversation . But just wanna put across to you that, i really appreciates whatever efforts that you put in the past 18 Days. Very much so with the hectic schedule over at your work place, i know that you've always been there for me.I can't be of much help with your work stuff and your Private matters but i'll just be a call or a text away. Its very nice of you to wake me up these few days despited your busy schedule and job scope at work. Spending your remaining hour accompanying me at home instead of resting at home.When i fall ill, you would than shower me with plenty care and concern. When i'm down , you were there to make me feel better. Thanks for everything that you've done for me, and i hope it remains the same for the rest of the time . Love

- Love , Sherlyn -

2010-03-22T18:11:00.003+08:00

Exams starts tomorrow, yet it feels like Holiday.

Woke up around 12pm in the afternoon, sub consciously wanted to wake Bryan up as usual, but realise after the First call that, i don't have to do it today. Check & reply my mails as usual, and went to facebook to reply mails there.

Went on to tagged Elson's Blog ( Oh yea, please support his music, pretty nice ) .

Spend my lazy afternoon writing song when my exams are just tomorrow. Someone please bring me out of this cosy room because i just can't help lazing around doing everything except studying. I think i gonna find my hairstylist real soon, after exams maybe. I want a new look!

Spending my afternoon with my precious maltese, because she spents most of her time following me wherever i go, do whatever i do. So it keeps me entertain most of the time. How i wish i could have one more puppy to add on more joy to the house. But i still love my maltese (:

Haven been blogging for the past days, met up with Fredrick & Cheryl.Went over Shane's work place, but he wasn't there, forgot that he injured his toe while dancing, had a couple of drinks and talk to fluke(Another singer) instead. A pretty nice guy though.

It's Bryan's off day today, but he had some R&D to do with his friends. So did not meet up with him. He called around 5 but seems busy, so i get him to do his stuff instead of calling me. Well, Perhaps meet him up after my exams, since he came over last night but looking so exhausted. Pester him to go home to rest instead.

It's evening and i don't feel like cooking today, so i guess i would just eat instant noodle for dinner. Any kind soul wants to accompany sherlyn for Dinner (: Alright, i shall pen down here.

Ps: Got a text message from Gracie. How sweet she is (: Telling me to take care as the weather is getting colder. The power of Girlfriends . It certainly makes my day. Thanks dearest! Love <3

Ps: Suppot Elson in his Musics & Event (:

Ps: Exams exams & More exams

( Last paper on saturday! Any plans, anyone?? )

With love

Sherlyn Wang

2010-03-19T22:10:00.002+08:00

Consider it half full or half empty?
You’ve got butterflies, good conversation, maybe even great sex, but sometimes it can be difficult to be sure if it’s love. How do you decipher whether the feeling in the pit of your stomach is the nervous quivering of anticipation or yesterday's lunch?

What he’ll do:

■Put you on his “A” list (pay attention -- You'll know if you're not on it)
■Introduce you to his family
■Make plans for the future (near and far)
■Do things outside of his “box” with you
■Share his secrets and his dreams for the future with you
■Worry about impressing your friends

■Come right over when you ask him to √
■Try to do things that comfort you or relieve some of your stress (like surprise you with dinner on a night you are working, rub your feet, or ask about your day)√
■ Appreciate and reciprocate your feelings and your actions like giving you a massage after he gets one from you, doing the dishes after dinner, or sending you a gift √

What she’ll do:

■Share her embarrassing moments and fantasies with you
■Little things all throughout the day that let you know she’s thinking about you
■Fantasize about her life with you, getting married, having kids, growing old, traveling the world, etc.√
■Tease you
■Hang out with your mother or talk to her on the phone ( Wow, i guess it will never happen ): )
■Appreciate and reciprocate your feelings and your actions, like offering to pay for dinner, getting tickets to a game or event she knows you’ll love, or cooking for you
■Ask questions about your life -- past, present, and future √

How you’ll feel:

■Excited, yet relaxed √
■Vulnerable, yet strong√
■Comfortable enough to be yourself in front of them√
■Like you want to include them in everything (but you won't desert your usual crowd to be in a relationship with them)√
■You’ll miss them when they’re not around√
■You can’t wait to see them, talk to them, play with them, and kiss them√
■You’ll find yourself wanting to make plans to have them all to yourself√
■You’ll have urges to do romantic things (maybe on the verge of stalker-like things) that you never thought you’d never do√

Signs that it’s not love:

■They blow you off or cancel dates
■Talking about commitment makes either of you uneasy or nervous
■Either of you are seeing other people
■Things are moving too quickly for one of you
■You find your partner lacking when compared to other people
■You watch a love scene in a movie or hear a love song and you feel a strong longing or desire for what you don’t have

2010-03-11T19:20:00.001+08:00

缘分让我遇见了你，但没让我拥有你的一切。我想为你付出一切，也想让你快乐但或许我在你眼里，可不过只是另一个在你生命中出现的女孩。

唯一，但却无能为力。你想要的，或许我还没法了解，但我想让你知道，只有在你眼里，我才能看见自己。一见钟情爱上你，可不过偶需我只能在梦里和你在一起。

爱让我好寂寞，但我不顾一切只想看见你快乐
朋友只是我影厂我对你的身份。因为在你没发觉时，我已经深深地爱上你了。

风，吹向那动听的音乐，让我来到一个素以你和我的地方。但在我回头时，我只能看见孤独的自己。我能深深地感觉到你的呼吸，当确实上，致使我在幻想，幻想让我跟靠近你也让我看见孤独的自己。

给我一个机会，让我带走你的寂寞和沉默。I’ll be waiting.

2010-03-11T18:08:00.002+08:00

When i saw you i was afraid to talk to you...
when i talked to you i was afraid to hold you...
When i hold you i was afraid to love you
Now that i love you im afraid to lose you.
Sometimes, i find that the hardest thing in Life isn't finding the one you LOVE,
But its making the one you love...Love you back.

If you truly love me, let me know, if not just let me go....
It takes 3 seconds to say 'I Love You' but a lifetime to prove it.
When you love someone, it's something. When someone loves you, it's another thing. When you love the person who loves you back, it's everything.Meeting you was fate, becoming you're friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control.

Never want to love if i knew it gonna fall badly.Faith makes all things possible. Hope makes all things work. Love makes all things beautiful. But yet, it bring the deepest pain you could ever feel.

Sherlyn hates this complex feeling, this feeling of fear and being alone..

2010-03-09T20:25:00.002+08:00

Speechless, its all i've been feeling lately.

Trying to be strong, yet i can't help,

Life is never fair from the start, but still, it still make me wonder, am i wrong ):

Isn't it true that..

Pleasure of love last for a moment, pain of love last for a life time?

I guess so. ( Why am i considering about someone else pain when i'm still handling mine ): , never help being nice at times ): . Because, i might wake up one day, realising, i've lost someone impt in my life. Happen once, twice and is this gonna be the third??? )

Sherlyn just wants a simple you ...

So near yet so far.

2010-03-04T20:26:00.002+08:00

So near yet so far.

And all i want, its you....

Memories, a word to remember because this is what you left with me these time.

I may not be the one you're looking for, but i would always be there for you if you ever need me..

- Sherlyn wants you -

Alone

2010-03-03T16:44:00.002+08:00

Alone, i wonder.

You render me speechless, because i just love the way you look at me.

It's fate that brings me to you.

When time goes by, i maybe erase from your memory.

But, if anyone would have asked me if i would do so.

I will just smile and say " Loving someone doesn't meant holding on to someone "

_Sherlyn emphasize, she simply wants only a simple life_

Chapters of life

2010-02-28T20:10:00.003+08:00

Something i wonder, why must it end in a way that you would never expect.

Sometimes i wonder, why am i blinded with everything that gotta do with you.

And why, love is so terrible... Well, this is the reality of love.

Someone, Somehow have been appearing in my mind recently..

Just leave everything like what it is nnow, because perhaps, that is the only way i could do, to be happy. But i know, somehow rather, someone creates an impact in my current life now, without knowing.. I'm never bother by people's comment on my current life, and i'm glad with everything that i'm having. Been lack of inspiration in my lyric writing for the 4th Song, still in the mist of writing (:

It gonna be something special, for as it relate to someone unique in my current life.

Updated my blog with Tons of pictures i took recently. With people that have been in my life, at my darkest point of time. And every single of you plays a very important part in my life..

Sherlyn justs wants to be happy, that hard???

- at the lowest point of time in my life, i just want someone like you to be there-

2010-02-28T00:30:00.003+08:00

Someone asked me to past this in my blog to appreciate her effort in doing this =_=''

*(thanks Krystal for making me so embarrass now)*

And people, Don't misunderstand.

Well, another night out with my beloved Girlfriend (:

And Well, I'm officially Single now (:

He gave me crap explaination via sms.. Screw him. Adrian, you're just a loser. And he says something like " Let put it this way. im breaking up with you.. & I'm a lonely loser, i like to fuck around and im not rich nor im handsome.. that y im letting u go coz u deserve a better guy thn me.." Can you imagine a 30 year old man saying something like this.

Headed to meet up with girlfriend at somerset, and went over mac to grab something for Andrew & Shane for their dinner. Kinda late at that point of time and they hav to rush off to work after a quite bite. James brough together with him a friend , patrick. And all these while, we took dozen and dozen of pictures (: Kind of busy that night as too much of things to do. Jeff came over too but with his friends while i'm kind of occupy replying text messages and ensuring that everything is fine. Music was good that night. Althought im feeling abit sick, but still, i did enjoy myself. Looking around the dark surrounding, and something just caught my attention, something so familiar, a tune that is ought to remember. Shane sang 最近 and it certainly ring up some flashbacks of mine. Sitting down , holding my glass, and thought...

Glad that my girlfriends enjoyed themself..

Sherlyn gonna live a new life now (:

Because i just love the way i'm now.

Have been busy writing lyrics for my 2nd and 3rd Song. The music for the First song is ready (: Done and compose by Xianning, We name it : Say goodbye. Lyrics is not yet out, still altering to make it perfect. It's a mixed between Mandrian & English. It's awesome in my opinion. Well, xianning will be doing the vocal once the lyrics is done altering.. Hopefully everything goes well for me (: I just want to lead a life, happier than now..

Sherlyn just want a simple guy, a simple love..

Well, I shall take a break ):

Alone...

The magical

2010-02-27T12:11:00.002+08:00

A doubt is lingering in me
And with every bit of my precious emotion
I beckon to you
My sleeping hatred grows with no bounds
And what was once my every thing makes no more sound, To me...
In the vivid world the colors around me are changing
Yet, with no hesitation or second thinking
I seem to always lose everything...
Trapping a heart in a 4 sided box with no air
Two drops of tears cut thru the despair
I'm feeling...
You enchanted me, adored me
And like life made me who I am
But with no regrets in my hand
And if I could turn salt into sand
I figure I've walked this far, what I could of ran
For me to see how much "I need you in my life"

The new, music of life

2010-02-25T10:27:00.004+08:00

A brand new playlist for blog after feedback that my it have been quite sometime i didn't add anything new to it (: Well, handful my songs selected from Gary Cao, add on to my playlist "

4th in playlist:canon in d ( emo version ) &12th in playlist 坏人 (Piano version) : credits to Xianning " ,

"2nd in playlist: 执着: ( Credits to Shane )

and a few others of my favorites..

Didn't attend school today.

Finally its thursday, 1 more day to relax (:

Got my results for last semester and surprisingly i passed all my 7 subjects .

I'm so so so happy ! Just gotta key for the new office, finally~

Sherlyn gonna fall sick real soon.

But still, ratchada on friday ..

Thee closes

2010-02-25T09:28:00.002+08:00

Those were the days of joy & happiness.

Those were the days i would admit that I'm genuinely happy

Those were the days when I'll smile over little things you do for me.

I miss you, but i can't bring myself to tell you what really occur in my present life.

Never want you to be worried,Never want you to be upset..

I read your blog, and i constantly did. Never once i fail to do so.

But for now, all i hope that you would know is.

"I'll never forget how we once were, and i do miss you stephy *

I knew all along that, no matter how much i changed,

I'll never ever, let you off my mind..

Hoping you're fine..

Girlfriend/sisters whatever it can be..

You'll always play an important role in my heart.. Even without you knowing.. Misses

Unique Feelings

2010-02-25T00:29:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, sherlyn just wanted something simple.

Nothing complex, Nothing sophiscated, Nothing expensive

Effort & Appreciation, is all that she ever needs...

She hope for someone simple.

She hope for someone that truly love her.

She long for someone to treasure and appreciate everything she do for him.

Hope,Long for, its all that she could ever think for.

-and one day, i would realise that, i actually fall for you-

for you and only you.

For who you are and not what you're.

I thought i gave up on love.

But deep down, i'm just waiting for the right person..

As a matter of fact, all i could ever do, is smile, but nothing else.

Love is an amazing equation.

It makes you tears, It makes you smile, It makes you angry, It makes you jealous

To sherlyn, True love is when you feel all these emotion, and yet still goes back to the person that bring all these equation together. It may not be eternal, it may not be known, but for once, you make my heart skip a beat, when i look into your eyes, for that split second..

True love, may not be being with you.

But see-ing that you are happy with your life, ts more than i can ever ask for.

You may find it amazed if ever you know thats all that i've mention, its you & only you

but be it the past,present, or future , its just you..

You keep my life going on, without you knowing (:

Mr _ , you're a very special person.

Perhaps not to the entire universe, but at least to me...

Before i even know, i am already falling for you..

Love is

2010-02-22T23:55:00.002+08:00

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. And if you & i had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we will find that we are one tree and not two."

Men always want to be a woman's first love. Women have a more subtle instinct: What they like is to be a man's last romance.

My beloved is only water, which is always flowing, and doesn't deceive, which is always flowing, and doesn't change, which is always flowing, and doesn't end. I believe in faith, only after heaven brings me to you... Cause one thing in this world that i know its true, it's love that i found when I'm thinking of you. Every fairytale starts with " once upon a time " but the story i wrote has just began..Sherlyn is spending every single moment in her current life, to find back what she really loose out. Sherlyn is finding back the fresh air in this universal. And what sherlyn really wants, its to know what could actually be the roots to her happiness.

- Its another dream, but its something different, because of you -

2010-02-20T22:50:00.003+08:00

Just uploaded every picture to facebook.
Have spent the entire afternoon editing and trying to save it on Facebook itself.
Was talking to xian ning in the afternoon in msn ( a very talented young composer ) i can say. Well, just some random thoughts and conversation. Love,life and everything. Infact he compose a music for me (: He name it Snow drift. I wonder why he choosen this tittle (: Well, will asked him some other day.. Will post a link of one of his music later (: Appreciated it lots (: Gonna stay happy, for myself .. I'm not gonna let anyone hurt me , anymore...

I still remember the way you look into my eyes, it reminds me of the fairy tale i read.

Xian Ning Creation: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1AUgC_LZNbo

Baby baby

2010-02-20T11:28:00.002+08:00

Love me for who I'm.

Because this is what i do , loving you for who you're.

But well, karma , what goes around comes around....

After crying so hard yesterday, i decided to give myself a nice present , because all these while i think of you more than me.. Went for lunch at pizza hut, spent $60 plus in STAGE to do my eye brow, brought some foundation there and brought 2 super nice eye lashes (: OH well, i tried to put on for myself for the First Time! And i succeeded. Got my nails painted purple today (: Was deciding on where to go yesterday while shopping. Its been so long i devote my time in committing to relationships and now finally i can catch some fresh air outside this "relationship" world.

Rush home to change, do my make up(including putting on the fake lashes that i stuck there for like 5 minute), and headed out. Went Ritz for awhile and Due to time constraint, headed straight to Ratchada,met up with Andrew(ex bf ) as he brought us in. Brought Courvoisier V.S.O.P and sat there relaxing. Streaming in with pipe in House Music and hearing them singing pieces and pieces of music. While Andrew was not that busy at that time, he came over to my seat and had several drinks with me and my friends. Still keeping calm with my emotions, trying to hold my tears back. While waiting for Fred Friend's Nic ( i don't know how to spell it actu ) to come, i get to came across with Shane ( Andrew's close friend ) , a pretty nice person (: Patrick came over awhile before he goes to somewhere else. Cheryl was sitting there enjoying the music and her drink. Dingkai and his friend came around 12 plus to look for me (: Took quite a handful of pictures with Cheryl,Fred,Andrew,Shane,Patrick,Dingkai,Nic. According to Fred, the pictures look great (: My pretty eye lashes was working well the whole night (: Addicted to it (:

Well i was getting back to my emotion, i thought something,something that came across my mind after all our conversation in the afternoon " are you worth me doing changes to you? "You want me to be fashionable because you're from the fashion industry. Are you being selfish? And do you actually have what it takes to comment on it? It is too much of a thought that you actually never once love me. And for all i sacrifice for you, perhaps I'm just making a fool of myself. And at this point of time, I'm in the state of tearing. While Shane was singing, all i ever do is to sit down and think of how foolish I'm. I Talked it out to Shane,Dingkai & Andrew and everyone say something in common, " He's not worth your tears" I cried once again.

Shane was kind of busy the whole night, so before i go, Shane came over for awhile, took some pictures and he went ahead to do his stuff, i went to look for Andrew before i go and say goodbye to him. Well it very nice of " Andrew,Shane,Dingkai " to tell Fred to watch me over yesterday. And thanks Fred , for hearing my non stop pouring of nonsense and tears..

Fred sent me home and after removing my make up, eye lashes, i headed to have a quick shower, than sleep till 10am in the morning today. Well i hope today would be a better day for me... Waiting for Fred to send me the pictures (:

Maybe...

2010-02-18T19:26:00.002+08:00

Maybe, its time to let go.

Maybe, its time to throw all the moments and memories away.

Maybe, Sherlyn should just continue a New Chapter of life.

So much of maybe, But what should i really do?

This is how much

2010-02-17T21:22:00.003+08:00

The worst feeling in the world is giving all the love you have and knowing it will never be returned.My heart bleeds no more since turning to stone.

A million words would not bring you back, I know because I tried, neither would a million tears, I know because I cried. Finally after so long,he finally showed his true self. It used to be so loving and sweet, and no matter how many criticisms, i still stood by him, no matter how busy he can be,I've always stood by him. But one phrase from him, that really shattered everything in me

" i just dunno how to appreciate what you've done for me. You've to accept the fact that somehow rather,people will be bored with their relationship."

Imagine how hurtful it can be hearing from the one you love. Well, he wants a break off from everything. After all, perhaps he will find the girl that will be what he wants.Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to you and you meant nothing to him.Once upon a time I was falling in love, but now I'm only falling apart.Once upon a time, there was light in my life, and now there's only love in the dark.Adrian, you taught me how to love, but never did you teach me how to stop.I wish I've saved all the tears I cried for you so I could drown you in them.

While I was holding on, all you did was let go

"Our sweetest songs are those that tell of the saddest thoughts"

2010-02-16T22:01:00.003+08:00

"we might not be close again, but i won't ever forget how it used to be "

2010-02-07T20:06:00.002+08:00

oops! Its Sunday again. Next week will be a busy week.

Basic theory test,Economic test,Principle of management test,Interviewing a manager from Sony for Principle of management project, heading down to Orchard to get gift for someone. Hectic schedule.Woke up very early today by mummy's curry chicken fragrance (: Its so yummy ! Brought baby down to Furry Pet for her regular grooming session and headed home aftermath. Went for crazy shopping spree on Saturday with besti at orchard and brought my self some clothes and a bag (: After which, headed down to Clark quay and have ice cream with besti.

Chinese New year reaching, but yet, it still seems normal to me.

Valentine day fall exactly on the same day as the first day of new year. I wonder where do couple actu celebrate this special day this year. HAHAHA. Well for a sweet couple, any random day can always be their own valentine day , because no matter what, it is just another day but as long as they are happily together, everyday itself its a special day.

Have been practicing my basic theory test online, and i've yet score full marks ):

Intended to do my hair at twister @ Cini today, butwas occupied with stuff. Haiz. My hair just look like a complete mess! Perhaps head down to parkway to look for my hairstylist on friday. I certainly don't wanna look like a complete mess on New year day itself (:

Anyway, past few days was pretty terrible for me. And yet there is a handful of people that encourage me and try to cheer me up.

Thanks people (: Appreciated alot for your concern and effort

( Cheryl,DingKai,Edmund,Kent,Jovin,Fred,Sara,Priscilla etc )

Might not be able to blog this week due to my hectic time table, well just have to wish all my friends an ADVANCE, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

For a sweet dovey lovers out there

Advance, HAPPY SWEET VALENTINE'S DAY

Specially for all my sweet love ones out there.

( Jeslyn&BF,Aiko&Lesli,Si Min &BF, Fiona & Zack)

( Dearest Cheryl,Dingkai,Edmund,Fred,Jeffrey,Charlotte,,Ah boy,Darrel,Joan,Jovin and more...)

You just left me

2010-02-04T23:59:00.000+08:00

Its a short day in school today,woke up late and head to school alone.Surprisingly, i was'nt late (: Mummy booked my Basic theory test on 3/02/2010 ( Wednesday ) ,

Good luck to hectic practicing (:

Gonna be real busy today

- Jeremy from Insurance company coming over at 6pm

- IT personnel coming to service all computers at my house

- Cheryl & Ed might be coming over

- Pack my room

- Practice my Basic theory question at http://www.singaporetests.com/

Adrian Finishes his re service today, but well, it don't makes much difference for me. Well, sometimes I'm just abit temperamental, but toward this relationship, i believe I've been holding on pretty well in it. No matter how busy he is/ how much i felt not concern from/how exhausted I'm , i know my limits on being controllable in everything I've done. Some one says " Life is all about choices, but making a choice that may not suit you may harm you. " Guys are pretty temperamental at times, but the only difference is, some guys is purely insensitive to whatever that is happening in their surrounding or to the person that may once love them. An eye for an eye, actually makes everyone blind.

“We say we love flowers, yet we pluck them. We say we love trees, yet we cut them down. And people still wonder why some are afraid when told they are loved.” Because i would have think, would you eventually find a reason to leave me, and left me alone like the withering rose,like the fallen trees together with the lonely me

“Do not love me because i love you, love me for loving me.” Sometimes you'll never feel what i felt during those days. Never once blame on you for your busy schedule,for being tired/lethargic,for not accompanying me for special events,for being cold towards me at times, but i blame you for one thing. That is for me to love you deeply once and fall in a confusion for the rest of the times. You want free moments, i had already given back to you every time that belongs to you, not even daring to steal a single moment. You want freedom, i've given back to you. You want plenty of rest, i've also done it. You want me being nice and make effort in the relationship, i've also done it, you want understanding, i've also done it. Tell me, what more do you want for me to get that deserve attenntion from you? As what you always said " Time off from relationship & stuff ""To be alone". Sometimes you put too much blame on me and you forgo those good times i've create for you. Those effort i've put in it. Well, to be exact, i dare not mention any of the above to you during conversation, because you'll just flare up or get away with the conversation. Sherlyn is drained off ):Sometimes she just want a simple you. Sometimes its a feeling, that you'll never feel...

Never Lie,Cheat or drink

If you must lie,Lie in the arm of the one you love .If you must cheat, Cheat death.If you must drink, drink in the moment that takes your breath away.

Love is...

2010-02-04T21:45:00.002+08:00

Trust no one, decieve everyone

(except for my sweet love ones)

Well, ironically, i find it wierd, i don't believe in being that nice girl anymore (:

i love the way i'm right now.

For whatever reason, i just wants to concentrate on earning profits from my new company(:

Well treasure or cherish? Its up to himself (:

Tag board have been interesting now a days.

Adrian ex Gf actu commented on it. Surprisingly cool. Well Girl, Human change, Enviroment change, perhaps you're the lucky girl that he is super nice to you(:

Life revolve around with choices. Be contented with what we have thought (:

Sherlyn says " She wants to be alone"

Chapter of sherlyn's life

2010-01-28T13:05:00.003+08:00

- HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAO BAI`ELIZA -

A series of picture i took on Xiao Bai's Birthday

Its baby 7th Birthday, thanks for whoever that wish her happy birthday

(Shuan,Jeffrey,Adrian,Fredrick,Lance etc)

She really did enjoy herself that day (:

It have been a busy week for me, application for my new company at acras, took so long for approval, Name card designing, finding a new office for it and those necessary arrangement. Been going down to International Plaza for several times. I've yet left with many more things to do! Adrian gg Reservice on 1 Feb 2010-5 Feb 2010(Stay in), Well, than have to work right away after reservice. I guess he won't have anytime for me too. So from the period Feburary, He'll be occupied with his stuff.

28/1/2010

I fall sick today, very very sick, i guess i caught the Flu bug from ALVIN! Thanks ar!! urghh! So stayed at home and rest. Have been a very contented lady these days (: Did not really bother much about everything, Just take it easy, Chill, Don't care much. Well thats life i guess, you'll never get what you want, and whatever you get, its never what you want... Treasure and cherish while we have, because you'll never know when he/she/it is leaving you either for good/to others. Sometime human will only find that that particular thing/person they lose, is actu somethins so precious to them. Only treasure and regret when they lost it. And by than, there is only one 3 words people would than say " If i know...."

" Why do people have to lose things to find out what they really mean?.”

I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken -- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived.

I've to confess, I miss you a little, I guess you could say, a little too much, a little too often, and a little more each day.

- HAPPY BIRTHDAY Nix 28/01/1983-

- HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAO BAI 25/01/2003-

I hope that for every candle on your cake you'll get a wonderful surprise.May today be filled with sunshine and smiles, laughter and love.Here's to another year of experience,not just a year older, but a year better.I hope all your birthday dreams and wishes come true.May this birthday be just the beginning of a year filled with happy memories, wonderful moments and shining dreams.A happy birthday to a wonderful and terrific marvelous you. May each and every passing year bring you wisdom, peace and cheer.
May this day bring to you all things that make you smile.

- Miko Sherlyn Wang-

2010-01-18T22:31:00.002+08:00

First day of Second Week of school, Were late as usual to meet Chris&Alvin, so headed to school myself. Was'nt sleeping very well these days, esp yesterday night. Finished School at 2pm today than headed down to International Plaza to sign some docutment, aftermathe, i went home and rest. Slept till 8:30pm. Adrian called me right on the dot while i dreamt of something and asked me for my address. So while im still sleepy, i just gave him. To my surprise, he ordered Mac for me and priscilla. Thats very sweet of him i guess. Its been so long.... I just run through my movie tickets that i go to with Adrian. For 3 Month & 17 day

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6 Movies,2 Visit to Sentosa ,1 visit to Night Safari,Sightseeing in Orchard&Sg Flyer

Gift from him: BinBin(Eeyoy), FairFair,BaiBai,Psp,Black dress,Personal "Credit card",Cards,Letters etc

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Haven been resting well these days, hope i can catch more rest (:

-with love-

2010-01-17T00:57:00.003+08:00

Happy happy day (:

Finally have the time to take a break.

And have the chance to go shopping with mummy, spend alot on formal wear.

Brought 2 Blazer,1 Pants, 1Shirt, 1Tank Top, 2 Packet of Aust nougat and had a $50 dollors plus dinner, cab home eventually (: Enjoy moments with mummy <3

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Been wanting to get a new dog for myself. Either i save money to get for myself on my birthday, or ??? Maybe not getting i guess if i can't afford to (: But should be getting I phone this year (: Dependss.. Feel so contridicting, thinking about that, actu i don't need a I phone. Humph.

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Offically changed my Name today, went ICA in the morning to change my new I/C.

No longer Michelle Ong PeiYu (: Now it left with my chinese name : Ong Zi Xiang , i know it don't sound really nice, hahah, but yea, still find it acceptable .

And Miko Sherlyn Wang as my English name/calling name. Something new (:

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Wishlist this year <3

* Puppy* - Maybe

* I Phone/ I Touch* - Maybe, not sure

* White/Pink Camera* - For sure (:

* Wallet/Namecard holder* - uh huh, most likely

* Dresses!!!!!!! * - For sure

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Gonna start saving from now on, to get what i want (: Perserverance. Lol, less pizza hut and stuff. because i'll be saving up from nw on! Well actu, it is a Want, not a need too (:

So yea, control!!!!!!

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The past

2010-01-10T21:09:00.003+08:00

"Nv in a million years i would hurt u sweety..i would rather hurt myself than to hurt u:) Dont think too much already k. all u hav to think about nw is hw r u gg to handle my love 4 u coz my love is going to overflow all over you"

Message from adrian/ 30/09/2009,11:23pm

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"I'm sry...i've tried to change myself to ur liking but i can't.sometimes u expect alot frm me but i can't deliver it to u.. im sry..mayb its just me..its nt about my job or nt enough time... im sry miko.. we cool off first can"

Message from Adrian/ 05/01/2010,8:28pm

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"I expect more n more??? Last time u make an effort to cook whn u nt working or studying.. u give me enough time to rest n relax??? What u mean by tht??? Rest & Relax n our free time is our being. we dont hav to ask permission to do tht"

Message from adrian/10/01/2010, 8:40pm

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These is what i get from the one i love.

I don't love you, i love who i thought is you.

Anw, im still 20, i still have a long way to go. Whats more important now is, i never would want to drop a tears over all these thing anymore. Because i find no worth in crying anymore.

Its the ending

2009-12-31T00:14:00.005+08:00

It's New Year Eve peeps, down to jotting down every single moment i have recurred this year. It wasn't a great start well, i guess it don't end well too. This time, last new year eve, my dearest hamster had his last breath, wasn't a good start of the year for me, well, i still miss you baby ): These are one creature that will never wish for prosperity,wealth. They love you for who you actually are, and would love you all their heart if you love them too. They don't fancy anything else, Just you. Every moment are special, some are sad, some are happy, some are just things that i would never wants to remember, some are just, purely lonely. I miss those days, where i could be better off, with a smile.

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New chapter of life, 2010

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Whats my resolutions?

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I wish to spend my new year happily, i wish to create more special moment with my sweetheart (Puppy - Eliza`Si Si) and earn more money, for a better life.

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What i wish for?

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Contradicting, i wish for a puppy, to give Eliza a playmate, yet, i just wish that she would have more contact with the puppy, eventually, she is getting older, I'm purely afraid, speechless ):

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Understanding life is hard unless you let life Understand who you are first to know what you can handle or what you fail at.I wish we could wake up on new years day cleansed.
Everything fresh. A new start.Flashbacks allow us to learnt from our memories, be it a good one, or a bad one, its still something we ought to know. Nothing is perfect, Just like you and me.
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2009 Jan -2009 Dec

Things I've gone through

* I've pass my Poly course i took, that make me struggle between both current studies and the course.
* I found a brand new relationship, although it often bring me tears, but i hope for the better

* I've finally meet up with jeslyn and gang after so long , several years
(Jeslyn,Hui Xiang & my 2 precious lil girl , Darrel, Charlotte`MinMin)

* I finally got the courage to let kx of my memories, although sometimes there would still be flashback, but it is smth i would like to forget.

* Found a new job, working at chocz at parkway parade

* Brought a new lappy ( Gift from dad? )

*New stuff toy added to my toy farm

* Got a deep cut on my finger, my puppy is the cause of that

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A messages to my special ones.

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Precious Eliza

Sweetie Pie, You may be a pain in the ass at times, but baby you know what, i still love you as ever. New year, a new start. I hereby wish that you would stay sweet and happy always. No matter what happens, I'll always be right there for you honey. Your birthday is reaching in 26 days sweetheart, I'll try to make it memorable for you alright! love you baby <3>

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My precious Sister

Happy New year babe !

It have been a very nice journey with you this year, we've been so much closer unlike the past. You're always there to hear me out, There for me when i cried, and hear my crappy nonsense when I'm feeling down. If i have an award to give you, it would be the

BEST SISTER EVER ON MOTHER EARTH!

Pris, Thanks for being my sister, at this life time, you asked me once, will i ever want to be your sister again, i would say, Yes, i certainly Do. Hope that 2010 will be a good start for you, and hope your dreams and resolutions comes true. (Don't be overly touch when you sees this)

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My Sweet Mummy (:

I've been through alot with you this year, i maybe overly rude to you mummy, but still, i know you just want the best for me. I know it sweetheart. Thanks for everything. Happy new year mummy, i hope this would be a great start for you this up-coming year . Love you mum!

Adrian ( Boyfriend )

Dearie, From the day i met you, i trust that you would bring me smile and happiness. It may took us just a couple of moment before we hold our hands and walk through the rest Year 2009 together, It may revolve around tears and sadness, but still, you have walk me towards the end of this year, and i hope 2010 would be a fresh beginning for you & me. Remember the moment when i first met you, you promise that if you ever had the chance to hold my hand, you'll never let it go. I hope you meant your words. I apologise for my wrong-doing these days, but i certainly hope that we would start a fresh, a new year. You have create moments for us, a moment that i will never forgot. Thanks for being there for me when i need you. Happy new year sweetheart. Certainly looking forward for a better year ahead. Will you walk me through again? Love you sweet boyfriend.
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Jeslyn,Charlotte,Hui xiang,Darrel,Joanna & my 2 lil angel

Happy new year Darlings!Many years down to road, we walk through different path in life. Everything changes, but never is our closeness we always have. Many yeas and its still going.

Jeslyn: Stay sweet with your boyfriend alright, no matter what i'll always be there for you Charlotte: DAJIE love you as ever! study hard sweetie pie!

Hui Xiang: Boy, you've really grown up to be very sensible, excel in nursing alright! Anything still can give DAJIE a ring, and not forgetting tell my 2 lil angels, i miss them!

Darrel&Joanna : Boy, Hope you last long with my sweetie pie alright! Don't go back to the past le k, start a fresh, study hard alright! You've a bright future ahead! Loves

- I LOVE YOU GUYS! -

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My dearest baby (Ayako Aiko)

Baby! Happy new year(: Althought, i still have not met you,but i believe you know that i still miss you like ever. I've always remember the days we have in sheraton (: You know what, i still miss the way we sneak at locker to have our breakfast secretly. I miss the way you complain whenever the locker is in a big mess. Stay sweet with Lesli Alright. I know, he'll always be there for you.

- Love you Stephy -

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A note to mark the end of 2009

I've been through alot, i've learnt to let go certain things, things that hurts me deeply. I've come to know that, nothing is perfect. This post might be very long, but it is the least i could ever do for people i care deeply. These are people that would stand by me, no matter what happens. I really appreciate those sweet words that you guys and girl used to cheer me up. In fact, too much to mention, not many people, but still, i'm glad that i met people like you guys.

Kim Yong: Thanks for always leaving comments in my facebook whenever i'm down (: Gracie & Cheryl : OUR DINNER!! and photos that we have yet took!
( Lets make it real soon (: )

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Happy New Year Once again.

Its 2010 (:

Falling in love is awfully simple

2009-12-28T23:31:00.001+08:00

"I'm not saying there wasn't anything wrong, I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me. I'm not saying we ever had the right to hold on, I just didn't wanna let it get away from me."

We cannot beg someone to stay if they want to leave and be with someone else. We have to admit that love doesn't give us the license to own a person. This is what love means...sacrifice."

- Miko Wang -

It still hurts ):

In my dreams you're mine forever

2009-12-28T01:55:00.002+08:00

♥♥♥

Romantic love is an illusion. Most of us
discover this truth at the end of a love
affair or else when the sweet emotions
of love lead us into marriage
and then turn down their flames.

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Looking back, I have this to regret, that too often when I loved, I did not say so.You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly. But sometimes, it is never that easy to be done, not by you personally, but as a couple. The feeling that is never be able to be jotted down in words and letter, The pain that i often feel, And those wonderful moments that we once share, is much better than those heart breaks i have now.In the arithmetic of love, one plus one equals everything, and two minus one equals nothing.I feel very empty without you. Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world,which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime
and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.

♥♥♥
Are you ever happy?
Baby, What greater thing is there for two human souls that to feel that they are joined... to strengthen each other... to be at one with each other in silent unspeakable memories. Do we even possess these memories?
♥♥♥

Remembered and afar
I watched you as I watched a star,
Through darkness struggling into view
And I love you better than you knew.
♥♥♥

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's
better to leave them broken than try to hurt
yourself putting it back together.

If you love me, let me know, if not gently let me go.
♥♥♥

Everyday i love you
♥♥♥♥♥♥

I don't know, but I believe
That some things are meant to be
And that you'll make a better me
Everyday I love you
♥
I never thought that dreams came true
But you showed me that they do
You know that I learn somethng new
Everyday I love you
♥
'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul.
♥
It's a touch when I feel bad
It's a smile when I get mad
All the little things I am
Everyday I love you
♥
Everyday I love you
Everyday I love you
♥
'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
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And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul
♥
If I asked would you say yes?
Together we're the very best
I know that I am truly blessed
Everyday I love you
And I'll give you my best
Everyday I love you
♥

As times goes by

2009-12-17T12:18:00.005+08:00

Have been spending the first week of holiday doing nothing.Except for studying for night classes at poly and job hunting. Exams had been nightmare for me, can't seems to concentrate on revision for this semester. Tons of things to do at one time. Finally get done and over with everything. Score a pretty well 90/100 for my night class exam, well at least i won't have to enter the poly again!

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14/12/2009

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Wake up early to meet Celine at AMK Mrt station at1.15pm . Very nice of this Tortise to bring me to SICC (Singapore Island Country Club) for interview, kinda far i think. People there were kind of wierd. But the members there are super HOT*. One word to describe (CHARMING) . haha. Celine agree to me too! I waited for the damm shuttle bus for 30 mins because i missed one. Surprisingly i saw Jovin and his daddy there, well as usual golf session for them,

Daddy still look as young as ever (:

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Wanted to head down to Tampines to look for Adrian, but he had a appointment, so i headed back home. At least have a nice shower and sleep. But ended up going parkway parade with Priscilla,Cheryl and my puppy Eliza as pris mention of a job vacancy over there. Well, i got the job, low pay for the first 6 days ($3.5 per hour ): ) Sell chocolate at (Chocoz) Basement 1 of parkway. Went for dinner at Fish&Co with my girls and headed to the nearest christmas decoration to capture some of our sweet moment with princess Eliza. Eliza is certainly the center of attraction, Wearing a Red dress that mummy buy for her with her hair tied up by ME . Went back home around 10pm and rush to make jelly ( the one Evelyn gave me ) , but it is not as nice as the one she made though ): But edible of course. Talk on the phone with Boyfriend, than slept till 11am the next morning

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15/12/2009 ( Terrible night)

Terrible night, major aguement with Adrian. On the verge of letting go. Cried for the whole night, was'nt feeling very good at any point of time. He've never been so sarcastic vice versa, i've never been that sarcastic to him before. Did not wake him up the next morning, not that i can't wake up, just that i don't know what to say. Drank the whole night before hand till 7am than slept aftermath. Did not even study for my night class exams for the following day. Spend the entire afternoon lazing around my room and my bed. Can't focus on studies so just slept throughout. Went for exams without preparation. But surprisly i pass my test.

p.s : Really apreciated for (Kim Yong,Fiona,Aiko,Celine,Jeslyn) who comment in my facebook cheering me up, i really feel so much better. Jovin, thanks for the message too, i'll be fine , i guess. Love you guys .

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16/12/2009

Met up with cheryl after my exams as mention,Accompany her for Dinner while waiting for Boyfriend to reach Eunos, In fact i'm nervous, i don't know why. Luckily it went out well. He worn this black shirt that i saw the first time i met him with specs, which i find him more charming with that spec on. He gave me this small white fluffy fat toy to cheer me up. I name this fluffy fellow, Bai Bai. Haha. I guess, its lame though. Headed home while boyfriend had dinner taken away and ate at home. Aftermath around 11 plus, he cab down to his grandma house and stayed there till 2am with his mummy. I waited till he reached home than tuck myself in bed. And yes, Finally can sleep in peace. Miko is tired.

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17/12/2009

Its Boyfriend off day today, Not sure of where we would be heading too. But i guess, as usual movie and stuff than home. Well update again tonight (:

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Alone

2009-12-05T18:28:00.003+08:00

Alone, I'm waiting

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"I wonder, when you look into my eyes and watch my heart shatter, does it break your heart too, even crack it a little bit?"

No one can promise they’ll never hurt you, because at one time or another they will. The real promise is if the time you spent together will be worth the pain in the end.

It's always the same in every relationship, there is always one person crying and wishing to get back together, while the other doesn't even remember the things they've been through. Will there be a day where i would be the one who remembers every little detail while you can't seem to remember me at all? You know you love someone when you want them to be happy even if their happiness means that you're not part of it. Thats when you smile in the eyes of your suffering.
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"Somewhere there's someone who dreams of your smile,

and finds in your presence that life is worth while,

so when you are lonely, remember this is true:

Somebody, somewhere is thinking of you."

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Thats the feeling i miss so dearly

Standing here, Alone.

Miko wonder at times

Is she important to you?

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2009-11-28T22:26:00.002+08:00

Everyone always says there are more fish in the sea... but sometimes you just really want bass.From an angel's wings, to a falling star, God made everything, but an unbreakable heart.Knowing the greatest distance on earth is not north and south, it is when I am right in front of you and you do not know that I'm the one always wanting you to be happy.

How do I make my heart start healing when it has never stopped beating for you?"

"I dont miss him, I miss who I thought he was "

If someone you love hurts you cry a river,
build a bridge, and get over it.

I'm tired ):

2009-11-28T13:36:00.002+08:00

Running out of words to describe how i feel now.

Same images, Same feelings, same words.

Can't help thinking of those horrible flashbacks.

Eventually, Either i accept it or i leave it

For now, i think i choose to leave it.

Nothing much can really explain why i felt that way.

Fear. A word to remember.

" Love me for who I'm "

I need you, because i love you

How about you?

I Believe in the explanation my loves one gave

but yet, i believe in what i see more.

2009-11-27T13:13:00.002+08:00

How can I forget you when your always on my mind?

How can I not want you when your all I want inside?

How can I let you go when I can't see us apart?

How can I not love you when you control my heart?

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Real tears are not those that fall from the eyes and cover the face, but those that fall from the heart and cover the soul.

You have been the treasure in my hand. You have been the one who always stood beside me. So unaware, I always believed that you would always be there. But then, will there come a day, when I will turn my head and you will slip away?

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When i say,

"Baby,i love you, more than you ever know"

William shakespears is a good writer, but i bet, he could never be possible to write out my exact feeling in words and letters, saying how much i love you, how much you stands in me.

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Words and hearts should be handled with care... for words when spoken and hearts when broken are the hardest things to repair.

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It's so curious: one can resist tears and 'behave' very well in the hardest hours of grief. But then when the "someone" makes you a friendly sign behind a window, or one notices that a flower that was in bud only yesterday has suddenly blossomed, a letter slips from a drawer or a teddy bear with his feelings for you written on ... everything collapses and went back to square one.

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2009-10-22T01:16:00.002+08:00

There is one pain I often feel which you will never know because

it is caused by the absence of you.

Been really upset.

Very stress yet helpless.

Infact i need nothing much.

But just your pure love.

Of all the words of tongue or pen,the saddest are those...it might have been

It's good to miss someone sometimes, even if it hurts your heart. Its hurting me, right now.

I have so much to say, but i can't put into words.

Easy as it seems,but who will understand what i'm going thru now?

Speechless, clueless.

Guardian Angel, is there anything that can make me feel better?

Wishing you were here )=

2009-10-17T01:15:00.003+08:00

♥ ♥ ♥

♥ ♥ ♥

♥ ♥ ♥

♥ ♥ ♥

♥ ♥ ♥

It is every woman’s dream

To find a man who can share

A life together as a team

Thur’ happiness and despair

A man who can make her beam

And knows how to care

That love becomes a theme

Circling warmly in the air

Life flows like a gentle stream

That’s because of you, I swear.

♥ ♥ ♥

Although I’m a little shy

Let me look you in the eye

And tell you you’re a wonderful guy

who always made it a point to try

To show that you’re my truest ally

Your love I can always rely

Through times low and high

You say your love will never die

But neither will I ever say goodbye.

♥ ♥ ♥

Days after days

My dreams I have continued to pursue

Up high I tried to reach all the stars in view

You stood by me all the way through

Gave me hope that a better future will ensue

Kept me grounded when too high I flew

Urged me on when hopelessness grew

Now I believe dreams can come true

Because in my life there is you.

♥ ♥ ♥

Glazing through the stars

holding your hands

Looking into your eyes

i saw something

something so striking,

that i can barely open my eyes.

Its the shiny stars in your eyes,

that emerge me to this illusion state of mind

having you all over my thoughts.

♥ ♥ ♥

When I am down

Beside me you will walk

When I am scared

The fears you will lock

When I need someone to listen

You will just let me talk

When I want to cry

My tears you will block

Thank you for your love

Which is as strong as a rock sweet heart.

♥ ♥ ♥

Been having ultimate fun these days,

no words can ever explain my happiness for the 2 days.

Full and laughter,

sweet surprises and new stuff toy

What is the best reward i can ever get.

Is to have you, right by my side,

♥ ♥ ♥

Your love is so strong and bright leaving me with a smile when i fall asleep at night,

when im dreaming hours seem as minutes

because i cherish every moment with you in it,
Waking up to your voice “good morning”

sends my heart and soul high a soaring,

love is said to last only till death

but our love will prove stronger than our final breath,

what i am saying is i love you for heavens sake

and when we die our love begins again at heavens gate.

♥ ♥ ♥

Im blissfully happy <3

"In real love you want the other person's good. In romantic love you want the other person."

2009-10-13T14:13:00.006+08:00

Love is that condition in which

The happiness of another person

Is essential to your own.

♥ ♥ ♥

I have found the paradox that if

I love until it hurts, then there is no hurt,

but only more love.

The presence of you would always be as refreshing as ever.

Not knowing that, you've been the gift heaven send for me.

No amount of sweet whisper can measure how much you meant to me.

But i would definitely takes a life time to prove that,

i really loves you.

♥ ♥ ♥

Many people says,

" Its just the initial stage of a new chapter of life",

many people would say"

you'll fail, trust me "

but whats more important is when you tell me

" i will hold your hands in years to come and prove our love to the universal "

It's never easy to love someone truly,

unless you have a true heart.

When you fish for love,

bait with your heart, not your brain.
Now that's how i caught you on my bait using my heart.

♥ ♥ ♥

We humans are most alive when we're in love

and

being deeply loved by someone gives you strength;

Loving someone deeply gives you courage.

Now baby,

do you understand what i mean by saying,
your every words mean the world to me?

♥ ♥ ♥

True beauty cannot be seen with the eyes only the heart.

Being unique makes us all beautiful.

You led me to something, something so special and unique,

something which seems easy yet sophisticated,

something ironical, is this thing call love.

♥ ♥ ♥

Many times,

when you look back on the path we've once walk,

you would laugh and say, " that's so silly "

and these silliness's is what that brought

2 different individual,

2 different occupation,

2 different characteristic,

2 different lifestyle

into one life, Just for you & me.

♥ ♥ ♥

Will you walk together with me, for the rest of your life, baby?

♥ ♥ ♥

If your love were a grain of sand, mine would be a universe of beaches

2009-10-12T21:58:00.003+08:00

Never smile for the whole day.

Caught Fever & Flu few days back.

And i swear i hate this uneasy feeling )=

When i turn back

2009-10-09T21:04:00.004+08:00

There is one pain I often feel which you will never know because it is caused by the absence of you.Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but its harder to pretend thatyou don't love someone when you really do.

Someone once told me,

" Don't make the same mistake I did.Don't let yourself be so angry that you stop loving, because one day you'll wake up from that anger, and the person you love will be gone. "

True love leaves a memory no one can steal and a heartache no one can heal.

I may not be the sweetest girl on earth, but i'll definately try to be,

if time and situation permits me to do so.

-miko-

99th truth about guys

2009-09-26T14:25:00.005+08:00

Just came across these while surfing the net (=

Kinda true i guess

Have fun reading peeps (=

1. Guys don't actually go after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.
2. Guys hate flirts.
3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.
4. When a guy says he doesn't understand you, it simply means you're not thinking the way heis.
5. "Are you doing something?" or "Have you eaten already?" are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.
6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
7. When a guy really likes you, he'll disregard all your bad characteristics.

8. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl's attention.
10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.
11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.
12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can't. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!
13. Guys cry!!!14. Don't provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.
15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.
16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.
17. When you touch a guy's heart, there's no turning back.
18. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...never mind would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.

19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.
20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
21. When a guy makes a prolonged "umm" or makes any excuses when you're asking him to do you a favour, he's actually saying that he doesn't like you and he can't lay down the card for you.
22. When a girl says "no", a guy hears it as "try again tomorrow."
23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.
24. Guys hate gays!25. Guys love their moms.
26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.
27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn't mean that the guy likes her.
28. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.
29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.

30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.
31. Like Eve, girls are guys' weaknesses.
32. Guys are very open about themselves.
33. Its good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don't let him wait that long.
34. No guy is bad when he is courting
35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.
36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they're not that much pretty.
37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.
41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.
42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.
43. Guys virtually brag about anything.
44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.
45. Guys think too much.
46. Guys' fantasies are unlimited.
47. Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy but her weight does!
48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!!

49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.
50. It's not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they've been together for 3 years or more.
51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.
52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be matured and grow up.
53. When an unlikeable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.
54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.
55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pu**ycats with their girlfriends.
56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he's sweating. You'll probably see that he is nervous.

57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.
58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me"
59. Guys don't really have final decisions.
60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.
61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.
62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.
63. Guys believe that there's no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.
64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.
65. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.
66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.
67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.

68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.
69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!
70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
71. A guy's friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.
72. Don't be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.
73. Don't be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you'll be surprised.
74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.
75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.
76. Guys don't comprehend the statement "Get lost" too well.
77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.

78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.
79. Guys don't care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.
80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they'll realize they're wrong.
81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He's just too stubborn to deal with it.
82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.
83. Guys' weakest point is at the knee.
84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.
85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.
86. When a guy looks at you, either he's amazed of you or he's criticizing you.
87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.
88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.

89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you're with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.
90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!
92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.
93. When a guy says he can't sleep if he doesn't hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.
94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.
95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.

96. Girls are allowed to touch boys' things. Not their hair!
97. If a guy says you're beautiful, that guy likes you.
98. Guys hate girls who overreact.
99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

Those flashbacks

2009-09-23T00:03:00.005+08:00

Someone once told me
life is like walking on a road

What ever that happens we are suposed to look ahead of us
looking at the wonderful things in ahead of us.
But by turning back looking at the steps we took back than, we would eventually miss out on the beautiful things ahead.

And only see them right after they passes us.
Leaving only footprints that is left behind and at times even trip over our own footprints.
Infact it not easy to keep looking straight after something beautiful is left behind

Some people call it memories.
but when we look over our shoulder too much~ one day, we may just give up the walk cos there is no more meaning to our life

A collage of a random pick of picture from my desktop.

Every pictures bring in their own memories.

Some can be a step to better moments

Some can never be the same.

For every moment i remember,

there would always be something pulling me away,

telling me, this can't be the way i want it to be.

Exams is over, and my 1 week of holiday just started not long ago.

Been planning for my HongKong trip with Ting Ting,Jerome,Joachim. Finally done with booking of our air ticket, and hotel accomodation. Would be staying at Royal View Hotel , flying with Cathay Pacific, Morning flight 8:55am on the 19Dec 2009 and

returning to singapore on the 23 Dec 2009. Alright Joachim says he will plan everything from there. So i shall relax though (=

Today is wad begins tomorrow's memeories
so make u live well and save it as a good memory

Its Charlotte birthday yesterday, so here wishing her a very SWEET HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE (=

Lover’s Fantasy

2009-08-26T21:57:00.001+08:00

Came across this beautifully arrange piano piece while browsing through some of it in YouTube. Thumbs up!

Bad day

2009-08-21T17:45:00.000+08:00

Tell me it is never true. Things was never what i think. I’m not thinking of you, but thinking your motive for every words you once said. Fetching me off work at Wheelock. headed to Bar stop, and those sweet whisper asking me to be with you, Your Mrs. *** , About the future and stuff , at that moment, i thought you were true. I’m not wanting you to be with me by writing this blog entree, but i find it ironical?! Come on, you left me so speechless. I wish I've never saw what i seen. At least, you’ll still look as perfect as it seems in the eye on me. Your life revolve around with lies and for once my life revolved ard with you. How much i feel that I'm toyed ard by you. I hate Mr. B**** S** !I mean seriously, wake up your idea!! I just hate the feeling now. And yes, it is seriously cause by you! Just you alone. Miko, you’re purely dumb.

Though it may be the past, perhaps it has been a year or more. I love you no more, but its just the unhappy feeling i get from you, you’re never true. You know what. I don’t hate you, but i guess, leave me alone.

Andrew went to school today, but too bad i finished school around 3 and headed home. Saw everything and just decided to vent my anger in this blog. Jerome have been sending me home these days, and his friend have been talking to me these days. I’ve really done something that i’ve never really done it before yesterday. To sing a birthday song to a guy on the phone! I think its sweet though, but honestly that guy can sing pretty well, I'm ashamed by my voice :( . Haven been talking to Drew these days. He’s busy with attachment at Le Amis.

Have Been coughing badly these days, falling very sick ): Just got back my result, for last semester, score pretty alright, did not fail though. Decided to stop blogging, below is a series of picture i took recently and some pictures randomly pick up from my computer, for viewing pleasure. Just too bored. Have Fun Folks (:

~~If time would go back to the day i knew you, i would choose to leave without allowing your footprints on my heart. i miss you at times~~

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Another day is gone

2009-08-15T21:05:00.001+08:00

Days was never good for me.Things not going well enough. People changes and most of the time not for the good. Good man never last, and time to time, People often take your kindness as a form of advantage. Some people never tends to watch their words during a conversation, Some would always thinks that they are on the right path, Some would not think before they speak.

Tons and tons of things to complete. Projects and stuff. Its a never ending cycle, where things always goes unwell. How i wish at times, i would just have the chances and time to leave to a place where there is only the stars,the sea and the sand. Just wanna be alone at times.

Guardian angel, i wish to be alone, away from hypocrites , away from people that hurts me, away from pain but just alone with the one i love.

Have been rather bored these days, so spend my time editing pictures at home, Photoshop do wonders, that i have to agree. Done a few for Eliza and myself, and 1 for Bryan, zhixiong and cute toffee (:

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