Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Dearest you.. xiao wen ; 11:11:00 PM
Wanted to have an early rest, came back from bugis getting hamsters new cage and baby new toys. I thought it is just another day. But somehow rather, something seems amiss. Not regards to work, not relationships, not my pets, but is some one so special.. I read the post.. And it jus began the way i believe you are feeling at the moment you read my post previously.
Tears flow down,the way my heartbreaks when i saw your entry, was even worst than anything than happen recently. I thought that you need not have me in your life anymore. Telling my new friends about this special sister i used to have. Leaving sheraton, was all i want to before i know you. How many times i used to tell you, steph i just wanna leave this place soon. After being with you, i've always wait for you to give me hint* , for time together . Slacking in the lockers, gossiping about mrs lam, complaining on how many rooms i have to clean. So much of you skipping lunch, because i did nt complete my assign rooms, sneaking up on floors lift to pass me biscuit, waiting for me to have dinner at canteen. You know, how much this b0nd meant to me? My reasons for going back to gift shop was you.. I thought you would love to see me there again.. i opened the locker, still glad my pictures are still there, everything is still intact, no one else have their stuff kept in.. Once you left sheraton, i still work there at times, the locker was't mine and ur's, i change at the place we use to change, memories fall back.
I called you and ask you to recommand me job, as i hate my job. And you told me you're working in nokia. We are so near, yet so far. My counter was next to you, yet we can't talk. The day you left, i remember i cook you breakfast, and you brought something for yourself too. Usually you would accompany me for breakfast, but that particular day, you did not, i don't know what happen to you, you seems piss. I ask zack why? but we don't know what really happen. You left half way through work, because muz says about your hair. And you never appear in nokia, anymore. Ask anyone, did i really forget about you. I talked about you, when kalvin says" miko, i saw the smal small girl at marina that day, never contact her already? " What can i replied? I don't even know where you work. People ask, " miko, never contact steph? How is steph? . Did you ever wonder, how much it hurts.. Yes, i did admit that new friends in nokia did accompany me throughout the entire stay there. Jelexa,zack and those, but i never forget you at all.. Never did i delete our pictures.
If you have a chance, if you ever found a way to open my heart, see how much it bleeds in me. You asked me, how i get your blog address,i said i happen to read and link through your friendster, but actu i have your blog address long ago, read your oldest tag, i believe i did tag once. You leave the deepest trace in my memories and in my heart too.
You're the one that accompany me through thick and thin. You're someone i never though of losing . Can i say its a friendship? sistership? relationship? or rather blood sister when everyone sees us at. I miss you, the way you smile. When my friend friends wanna know you that time, u saw how angry i am right ( near your hse ) . You know how much i hate when you are hurt by your bf's..
You're the one that can make me pen out my thought over here, and the one that make me tears now. No matter what, even if it gonna remain like this, telling you what i meant through this blog. steph, you're will always stay, right in my heart.. A memories that can never be erase.
o9o1o7- i do miss your smile ):