I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy, I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry, I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me - I’m going to smile.No one can promise they’ll never hurt you, because at one time or another they will. The real promise is if the time you spent together will be worth the pain in the end. Some one just told me today " If you find yourself in love with a person who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart."
Sherlyn drop enough of tears, to drown the heart that hurt her.
She gonna walk out here, trying to be fine
She gonna smile and hide her tears
She seems sad, and weak, and i wanna help her
and when she look into the mirror,
I realize it was no one, but myself.
After many heartbreaks, i should learn how to be strong, and live a better life again.
If it's always as easy as it seems, but it's not.
I've cried, I'ved tried ...
Thursday, May 26, 2011
sarang heyo ; 1:46:00 PM
I thought i've forgotten you, but i guess i forgot to.
Fruitful week previously, headed to Club Sensation with buddy, his friends, Junius,Cheryl for a drink. It's Shane's new performance place, so just head over to support, kinda nice place compare to the previous, just the smoking part, gosh it almost kill us. Finally finish my avante garde shoot with Michael from Modelmayhem, american style shoot, damm tiring, esp the focusing of emotions, drains me off. Gonna upload the pictures once i get them [:
We always long for the forbidden things, and desire what is denied us. I love the glamourous you, I love the way you look at me, I love the way you handle my emotion, I love the way you hold my hands, I love the way you touch my heart, but i doesn't love the way you were so near to me yet i know i couldn'nt have you always.
A million words could describe how much u meant in my heart.
Thursday, May 5, 2011
It hurts the most ; 9:32:00 PM
Every night i talk to the stars pretending its you.. it acts just like you though.. far away and never replies to my questions .
Sometimes if you love someone so much, it will actually hurt more than you ever know.The hardest thing I've done is acting like i hate you, when really i love you more than you will ever know. Sometimes, the love, erupts like a volcano, unexpectedly, passionately.Sometimes, it dies off, together with the burning flame.How much more,could this goes on.
I've learned that: Goodbyes will always hurt, pictures will never replace being there, thanks is a feeble word, memories forget the hard times, words can never replace feelings, and hero's often go unsung.
Oftentimes we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to. Though that does’t mean that we've stopped loving them or we've stopped to care.
I guess, sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you. Looking upon our memories, i called it off the day, and realize perhaps we're not meant to be.Switching off away from the world, and perhaps closing my heart, wiping away those tears.
I guess there is no material harder than saying goodbye.
Love- is just a word, that is often mention but rarely seen.
Three words, eight letters, so difficult to say. They're stuck inside of me, they try and stay away.
But this is too important to let them have their way. I need to do it now, I must do it today. I am sorry.
I'm sorry for giving you sleepless nights I'm sorry for your pain & agony I'm sorry for the missing harmony I'm sorry for my selfish love I'm sorry for not caring enough I'm sorry for my restlessness I'm sorry for the losing grace
I turn and look into your eyes, full of emotions, i felt a range of feeling, circulating around my mind. I whisper love into your ears, and around us was silents, it seems that the world turn the busy city to a city of angels, where everyone would bliss our love.The best and most beautiful things in this world cannot be seen or even heard, but must be felt with the heart. Our love puts the fun in together, The sad in apart, The hope in tomorrow, The joy in the heart but yet sadness in our life.Once in awhile, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale, just like how we used to be. Cinderella returns to reality when the clock strike 12, and back to the tragic life of hers. As i walk back, all i hope, was just for the time, to stop at this moment, where our heart stays, for just a moment, seal our love with a kiss, everlasting kiss was all we ever wanted. There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness, and my reason was you, because you're the one.
My soul is shattered without your arms to hold me, just like a mirror without a reflection. My lover, your smile is my sunrise; your kiss is my sunset. Thank You for being always there for me, you're someone in life i would never want to lose.
When i need a friend, you are here with me. When i need help, you're still here with me. When i need someone who care, you're here with me. When i need someone to love, you are here with me. When i need someone who is special , you're also here with me. Baby, i miss you so much, too much to be true, missing you ever single miniutes and second, i turn around and look into your eyes, and i realize, i miss you even when you're just right beside me. Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control. Asked me about love, i would look at you and say i don't know anything about it, I just know that i'm in love because i think about you more time in a day than think about myself.
True love never ends, in the heart of the lover.
Love starts with a hug, grows with a kiss and end with a tears. My lover, if there comes any day when we can't be together, just know that you are in my heart and will always be there. I love you not only because of who you are but also because of who i am when i'm with you. Baby, you can fall for everything, but the best way, is to fall for me.
There may be a day you walk away, there maybe a day you forgot my name, there maybe a day you leave me, but with all that, our sweetest thoughts carries the hardest memories. Our first kiss had always been remembered, and i hope you always remember, how i plant my first kiss on you. I looked into your eyes and tell you how much you meant in my heart, wishing you could feel my love for you. My lover, i love you for all i do, and as always.
Sweetest hello and hardest goodbye.
For all i know, my love for you will never change.
Whenever I cried he would always make me feel like he would change the world if he could so it couldn't hurt me anymore. But now I’m crying and he's not here.
You can close your eyes to things you don’t want to see, but you can’t close your heart to things you don’t want to feel. All of a sudden, i don't know how should i pen down my thoughts, many days and nights, it left me thinking, who am i, to you. Your Friend, Your lover, Your future or just another girl that walk pass your life. Our sweetest memories left me pondering, if we're fated to be. When you said, I'm your everything, did you meant it, when you said, you love me, was it Love or just another word you said to make me smile.A teardrop is insignificant in a pool of water, but it can touch the soul as it runs down someone’s face.Someone can walk into your life and it is not until after they walk out that you realize that they were even there. And i knew, if you ever walk out of my life, i wouldn't know how could i face, face my life without you.
True love doesn't have a happy ending, because true love never ends. Letting go is one way of saying I love you. And if you comes back, we would stay, happily ever after.True Love burns the brightest, But the brightest flames leave the deepest scars.Because true love, never ever, runs smoothly.Baby,To find true love you must listen with your heart and not your mind, and i just wanna know, if your heart, looking for me? Love never dies, but right now, i couldn't see colours in my life, because my heart bleed since turning into stone.
I wish for you and your love, but perhaps it might never return.
Alone i shall wait, forever it can be. I'll be waiting.
I hate the stars because I look at the same ones as you do, without you
Love is never easy.
It just seems like another dream, she, the one you share your dreams, the one you plan to creates a relation, the one whom you can rush out from a place to answer her call, the one whom you plan to live a life with, the one you could miss, every single minute and second, the one that make your heart soften whenever she look into your eyes and the one you feel hurt whenever she cried. " you're always mine, in my dreams" but when you wake up and realise, she wasn't there, you look at that blank wall, feeling all alone.
You walk pass couples, wishing your life would be just as sweet as any couples on the road, you look at the girl with a ring on her finger, and made you realise, could you ever had the chance to do so, with the girl you love. Everything were merely just an illusion, everything was just a dream to you. Everything was uncertain, however for one thing he know, all he wants was her. It wasn't foolish, it is true love, something we could never see in heaven and earth, we talks about it, but we rarely see it.
Being alone, was all he could do, however, he didn't realise that at the other part Earth, the girl he might be looking for, might be sitting right beside her bed, wishing, wishing that he is there for her. Their sweetest song carries the saddest thoughts, she looks upon the sky, and made a wish. She keep it silence, no one knows it. Tears roll down her cheek, she realise, she needs him, badly. Pleasure of love last for a moment,Pain of Love last for a lifetime. And every time they talk, they fall a bit harder each day.
Everyone called it an impossible love, but he holds on, to something, call faith, looking forward for every moments. She, who holds back, realise that, this time, it was a forbidden love, an impossible love, yet all she wants to do, was to walk towards the love, that no one would encourage for. She walks alone, with wound and injuries, she falls, but she stood up, for her faith and love.
What's love, and why could lovers gone through miles of obstacles,just to be in love, why wouldn't everything, be as simple as ABC. It was love , the creation of this certain emotional feel, call heartbreaks. Alone she shall wait, forever it can be, she knew, she will always wait..
They said I deserve the best, but if the best isn't you, I don't want it.
A man falls in love through his eyes, a woman through her ears..
It's better to cross the line and suffer the consequences than to stare at the line for the rest of your life.
Love stories, doesnt come about, like how fairy tales works, it may never be the ending we always wanted to hear. Cinderalla pass through stages of test and suffering than had a happy ending with the prince. But at least, it's Happy Ending, Happily ever after.
However in reality, it may not happen the way we want it to be.
The mark of a true crush, Is that you fall in love first, And grope for reasons afterward.
Time may take us apart, that's true, but I will always be there for you. You're in my heart, you'll be in my dreams, no matter the miles between.
-Many of us, fall in love, yet realise, it might be too deep to pull back in reality, you wake up thinking of the one you love, you heart skips a beat when he/she calls you, when you know he/she tears, your heart feels as if its shattered into a million pieces,when you saw him/her, you don't know if you should say " HI" or just "Smile", Deep down, all you wanna do, is keep quiet and give him/her a hug. Many of us wonder, why isn't love, as sweet as honey, as beautiful as fairy tales, the reason was, many of us would only cherish when they can't have it and yet knowing fairytales are just illusion. Love are like Magic, they are illusion, that makes you believe, fantasy do come true. Little girls believe in the clown that perform magics and make them happy, however, how about those dejected people, that is yearning for someone, to show them, at least the colour and meaning of their life. Love can't be brought by price, but we humans, can pay heavily for it. Thats the love we are talking about.
Loving someone is hard, especially when you know they belong to someone else. However, if we realise, many of our sweetest memories, comes from the hardest love.
Somehow rather, i have experience many moments, that may stain my memories for the rest of my life, with hurt and tears, yet beautiful memories. When you fall in love, you realize, there will be many thing, you would do for the one, you love the most.
Perhaps one day, you might see me the way I see you; but for now, being as your friend would have to sufficient. `Seems familiar, or felt this way?
It's hard to wait around for something you know it might never ever happen but it's even harder when you know that it's all you want. And that is true love.When we look for the right person we always end up with the wrong one but when we just sit by the corner and wait, he comes along and shares the corner with you.
Wait for the boy who will do anything to be your everything.
Without faith and hope you have nothing, but with it, you have everything.
Accompanying me through the night was thoughts and memories.
Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do. Many times, i wonder, what is love, it's like ghost, everyone talks about love but yet rarely someone sees it. Love can't be brought by wealth, but we can pay heavily for it. Some memories are worth the pain, but some, left a scar in your life.
Most of the days, i wasn't happy.
I smile, I laugh, everyone knows
I Cried, alone is all i could say
Most people would ask, if I'm fine?
And yes i Do, I'm, but deep down in my heart, i wasn't that strong after all.
Babies and Children smile happily, when they have sweets
Yet I, do not know my reason to smile whenever i smile.
I could hold on to everything.
But after all,when i reached a limit, i would let everything go.
Where there is Love, There is Pain & Sacrifices
I know, I ackowledge, but spare me tears, because i knew, it could easily drown you.
I don't believe in True Love, because, i haven seen one.
One makes mistakes; that is life. But it is never a mistake to have loved.
Life as we know -
Back to blogging, after stopping for such a long time. Been busy with Tons and tons of photoshoots recently and replying back countless of emails. Done one of my best photoshoot with Richard & Edmund , 7 hours of shoot at various location , not forgetting to credit Jordan Lim for his make up service that day. Awesome experience, will upload the pictures once i recieve (:
If you gonna engage professionals for your special day, feel free to contact them ya (:
Recent Life -
Finally back to modelling, re-building up my portfolios, trying out different photographers and their style, venturing into different themes.
Planning of shoots can be a hassle, so for any booking, please give me at least 2 weeks for me to prepare and to slot out a time slot.
As there is a large number of request for me to put out my schedule for shoot on my blog, here is the following shoots for the week.
Comfirm Shoots: Sat 23/04/2011 - Studio Shoot ( Morning Session )
Tentative Shoot: Shoots for blogshop online shopping
Full day shoot: Andy (Theme shoot)
Studio Shoots: 24/04/2011 (DV)
If time permits: Shoots with WJ
Cancel shoots on: 24/04/11 ( Outdoor shoots )
Finally finshes my exams for RES, hopefully,
i could pass this exams( lower possibility but still , praying hard )
Soul Mates -
Thanks for being there for me always and the concern you've been giving me. Appreciated much. You've done all you could for me, althought i do have my own situations to handle as well. Never wanted you to be unhappy, stay happy always (:
Thanks lovelies for beeing there to support me physcially and mentally for all these while.
Have been falling ill recently, hence the number of shoots cancel, my apology. Hopefully things will get better in May (:
Love me or hate me, it doesn't matter. Because it doesnt benefit me.
If you can't be who i'm, stop ranting about me.
I'm exhausted, gonna pen down my blog post soon. Just to put down some details and information of what my reader or people around me have been asking for .
1) The photographer link and portfolio for my shoot (Picture above)
(Please contact them with the above information, as i do not have complete details on what service they provide, so yep (: )
Good Night Earthlings (:
Sunday, March 13, 2011
The past wasn't that fascinating when you realise ; 10:25:00 PM
It wasn't about love, it was about how it was before and what you want in life. Year 2011 wasn't much an interesting start of life, however, trying to let moment and memories of year 2010 to stay in a place, where only good moments are frozen and be in part of my memories and the bad moments to disappear and never to happen again.
Ended my internship at Pan Pacific Orchard, i found a very interesting job in Chjimes for the year 2011, i took up real estate courses hoping for a better life.
I met up with my ex dearest and sort many issue and question i used to have in my heart and start a new chapter of life by improving on myself.
At different moments, i turn and look at my past memories, realising that what hurt most wasn't break ups, it was trying to piece out many broken pieces, realising, I'm wrong, experiencing painful cut every now and than, that it was all, caused partially by myself.
Relationship goes through the toughest patch ever, as it does not consist just me, but his past commitments, and at times, i felt mentally drain off, but these matter. I wish for a much more stable life.
Kind of lost who i really am, i miss how i used to be..
Browsing through my i-touch note pad, and notice i didn't post this blog entry of mine, 11 months ago, so decided to post it since it was written and it would be a waste to leave it alone.
This is how it goes
"Seeing your face today made me realise how weak I am, even thou I though I am strong and could handle everything..Why you came into my life when I needed you least, and you walked out of my life when I need you the most..
Funny to say that it wasn't me who walked out, it was you..Perhaps you walked out so in-order for a better life, but I was scared to fall in love again..
I used to think that we all make our own pathways in life, what brings happinness and sadness to our lives. After meeting you, I started believing in destiny.Things happens for a reason.I cannot figure out the reason yet.
I never really understood the meaning of letting go the loved one, and if it's meant to be it will come back..I tried to let you go, and you came back just to turn my world upside down..
First time I laid my eyes on you would never imagined that my heart would fall for you..Every moement we spent together I remembered like yesterday.Just staying in silence and just knowing by the look in both of our eyes that it is the best moment of our lives.Your whispering into my ear still echos and your tender touch still can be felt on my skin, your soft lips still felt on my lips..
I kept telling me how much i loved me, and you never took my words seriously, until today. Hoping today, with the way i said that, the way my voice reached your ears, the way my eyes filled with tears, hoping that you realise what i meant.
If I could, I would give all of me, risking everything just to stay next to you, just to hold you, and feel you even though that would mean I would never be able to do that again...
What hurts the most is that we both know what we want and how much we want it, we cannot have it.
Do you still keep believing and not giving up? Or just live with the pain and questioning yourself on what it is?
I thought it was forgotten , till I hear your name. It gives my heart a little squeeze and I felt the pain . I look back at the journey , and felt a difference , I was smiling back than but tearing badly in my fragile heart. I mention about you and I almost cried. But where were you , at this point. I need you to be just mine . Nothing much to make me fine . I need your simple hug to bring me life. And all I need was you to make me fine.
Why wasn't you here, when i need you the most. And something i wish, i've never known you before.You make me feel the existing of love, you made me felt special. But most of the time, i was left, yearning for you. Special changes rcently, and hopefully it is an ideal start for someone like you. Imy.
Saturday, September 4, 2010
; 6:50:00 PM
Flashbacks , back to the place where i first fall for you. Knowing that it will never happen. But at least, it makes the rest of me felt loved. A moment with you is worth the times and moment i cried alone. Imy sweet ):
Saturday, August 14, 2010
; 11:42:00 PM
Blinded with love, accepted every flaws of you, face the reality but knowing it's the impossible. I thought of letting go at times but my heart stopped me. Because I need your existence to keep my heart working . At times I'm left alone and what kept me going on was those moments with you. A moment with you is worth the times I tears alone.. Roll back time to the day when i first know you, were memories that could never be earse away.
Accompanying me throughout this 1 Month of attachment at Pan Pacific Orchard, was thoughts and memories. Sometimes people talks like how you do , sometimes people resemble you , sometimes people around happen to have the same name with you , but the question was , why not you ?? Was the cheerful and hyper sherlyn real , or it was just artificial . Than I realise, the only time I let my guts down was when you're around. My heart would become fragile, and my eyes would only looked at you and only you. One thing I'm sure of, you're someone I ever love, that much that I realize, I could only see my reflection in your eyes. I'm afraid to love fast, because it will leave fast. I thought it was just a mere thought, but I realize, it was something more than just love. Remembering every single things about you, missing the way you comfort me when I'm down, loving the hug when you embrace me, remembering the promise I gave you.. It's killing me, softly and painfully at times. Replaying that similar melody on my I touch , everyday, because it feels like you were beside me. I really miss you, someone like you that touched my heart. Without you knowing, you enter my life, becoming colors of my life but at the same time pain in my heart. Absence make the heart grow fonder, but it makes the rest of me lonely, very lonely.. Sherlyn misses you, deeply.. I fall for you, without me knowing, and that love was as precious as diamond.
In the world of lies, you're my truth.. But yet , the truth was hidden , in a place , that I could never find.. It wasn't that much of a sophiscated feeling, but back than , it's like the ranging emotions I would have, whenever I'm with you .. Tell me it wasn't true that i wasn't thinking of you .. But yet, right here standing was me , and all you were was standing there .. I misses you and everything about you .. Didn't you know about that ? Or chosen not to at the first place. Never wanna be upset again , because I know , it will never be the same again. Why would I fall for you, when all you could ever do, is turning away. Who would than explain those hug ? What is love to you ?
Written this entry quite sometime back, but did'nt post up on my blog. Somehow felt uncomfortable to do so. Days at Pacific Club was good, people were nice , guest were nice too. But at times, i would want to be alone, whenever i think of someone as special as you.
Time passes as fast i could believe. Been 3 Months after the Break Up with Bryan, glad that things have gone well with him and his new job, perhaps thats what it meant to be, " Perhaps it's better off this way " Thats how this phrase came about. Hope that a better girl will come by to walk him through this rough journey in life.
Thanks Vincent, for sending me to and fro, buying me dinner, revamping my room, tolerating my nonsence at times (:
Monday, June 14, 2010
; 2:15:00 PM
Some of the biggest challenges in relationships come from the fact that most people enter a relationship in order to get something. They're trying to find someone who's going to make them feel good. In reality, the only way a relationship will last is if you see your relationship as a place that you go to give, and not a place that you go to take. Little kindness and courtesies are so important. In relationships, the little things are the big things.Problems in relationship occur because each person is concentrating on what is missing in the other person.Some people enter our lives and leave almost instantly. Others stay, can forge such an impression on our heart and soul, we are changed forever. Sometimes i miss you abit too much each day but all you were, was standing there, while i'm waiting here.An argument is always about what has been made more important than the relationship.And that have been what i always wanted to tell you.All broken relationships can be traced back to broken agreements. You are someone in life, i would never wish to let go. And those memories, that i deem priceless.
Will be taking my TP at Ubi driving center tomorrow, 1:55pm. Pray hard that i would pass the first time round! Nervous..
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Its easy to fall in love. ; 11:22:00 PM
Faith means belief in something concerning which doubt is theoretically possible.Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice but falling in love with you is something i had no control over.Days after days, i thought everything would be alright.Some people says " The ones that u love the most are usually the ones that hurt u the most." But i can't agree to it, because, never once did you hurt me, but often i wish i've the opportunity, to be with you.Love is the triumph of imagination over intelligence.A very small degree of hope is sufficient to cause the birth of love.And till these day, i hope for nothing but wishing that you're fine, wishing that you're happy, wishing that you could smile, every single day even if i'm not the reason. Love is blind, and i'm blinded by you. Maybe you knew since day 1, that i've been falling for you, deeply each day. I wish to ignore your existance at times,but i can't get you off my mind. At all.There is no remedy for love but to love more. Is there such a thing as lost love? When you lose something it still has the potential to be found but when love is lost you may never find it again.It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.Better never to have met u in my dream than to wake and reach for your hands and you're not there. Love itself is as much of an object as an obsession, everybody wants it everybody seeks it, but few ever achieve it, those who do, will cherish it, be lost in it & among all, will never...never forget it. The human heart knows thing the eyes cant see,and feels the things the mind cant understand.but if love is just a word, then why does it hurt so much when you find it is not there?It takes only a min to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. And perhaps i would take a life time, to forget someone like you, if i would ever want to.Love is like the truth, sometimes it prevails, sometimes it hurts. And it could really hurt someone, badly..
Its easy to fall in love. The hard part is finding someone to catch u.
Love, like a river, will cut a new path whenever it meets an obstacle. And the biggest obstacle of love is the fear of not being loved.. Someone once told me, Love is hard to find,but once you find it you won't regret it. To be your friend was all I ever wanted to be your lover was all I ever dreamed. Because Love is all the emotions of the world into one.
"Once upon a time I was falling in love, but now I'm only falling apart." Words & hearts should be handled with care... For words when spoken & hearts when broken are the hardest things 2 repair.And those were the days, where i felt loved but yet, it's silently tearing me out, like how a ragged doll is distroy.The greatest pain that comes from love is loving someone you can never have. And all i want, was just a little of your time, and a little of your love.Trying to forget my love for you is like trying to remember someone that i never knew. The hardest part of loving someone is knowing when to let go, & knowing when to say goodbye. In the arithmetic of love, 1+1= Everything & 2-1=Nothing .
I love you, When ever I saw you, You would put a smile on my face, You cheered me up, When I was feeling down.. And that is what makes me, falling for you everytime i sees you.
Wishing to the stars, hoping that you were here. And never did i realise, you stays a very important part in my life. Because, my love for you, have never decrease, but increasing each day. And more when i see you.And for that i'm sure, i could never find this special feeling, ever with any other guys out there.
It's hurting my heart, as, i'm really missing you , right now, this moment .
Shane: Take care of your hand! Hope you recover soon yea!
Joanna: Update you more about everything real soon babe ! Miss ya la dearie !
; 11:32:00 PM
Many things to update in blog recently.
Finally get to go school by Bus today, woke up late despite frequent morning calls by Vince. Got on to Msn and receive a shocking news, but well it does not matter to me anyway. Rush my ass down to class. Finally got back Business communication paper, got a 31/40 for the test, well done sherlyn (: Vincent was quite sweet because he actually came down earlier despite that i might end of late from class, to fetch me. Skip a lesson to go off and headed to have dinner at Katong than went home. Took a quick bath and went down to meet Bryan, had some talk, perhaps it's better off this way, anw thanks Bryan, for the pen(: Both me & Vincent waited for Priscilla to head home than went out for supper together. Drove us to Mac at Kallang and spent quite some time there. It was a pretty tiring day i guess, exhausted ..
( Blog was written only on 28/05/2010, late delay )
It's public holiday! Finally a good rest .. Woke up around 9am as Vincent brought us Prawn Noodles from joo chiat, that require at least an 1 hour wait ! Spend time munching on snacks and talking among 3 of us and decided to go for a swim at his house. Bring my 2 Lovelies down for some water splashing time. Feel so sweet when Kaylen hug me <3>
Went over to Katong for dinner with Vincent & Pris, than drove down to parkway to get Ice cream as everyone is craving for it. As usual, bickering among Pris & Vince. Went to get ice cream from scoopz and headed to Gaint, getting grocery to prepare for tomorrow breakfast for both of them! Vince actually says he is excited about the breakfast i'm cooking! Perhaps it may not be edible! It's a long and tiring day today. But i'm very happy. Very very happy (:
Tonight gonna be a good good night, because i can sleep well i guess (:
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
What he doesn't know ; 11:43:00 PM
I thought everything would be fine.
I thought it would be gotten over.
I thought life would better off without those memories.
I thought of everything i could, but never did i thought, after much attempt, it still feel weird.
Never know someone like you would make my heart skip a beat, for everytime i see you.
Never know that i fall so deeply into you, till the day i realise, it was too deep to hold back.
I sat back and thought, would things be different if i tell you how i feel.
And realise, it's too late.
Trying my means to let all memories of us go.
Memories when you first hug me
Memories when you first call me..
Memories of the days you accompany me even when you're working.
Trying to be a little more than just a friends..
Trying to deny the fact when people asked about my feelings for you. ___
When I first saw you I looked into your eyes, Saw a glow about you I loved all that I could see
I love to see your smile Spread across your face But when it does seem to fade My heart stars to ache
I like to hear you speak Your voice brings me chills It puts me in a crazy setting All starts to haze
Whenever I think of you I drift to a far off place Where anything could happen Where I could love you with no restriction
I didn't know what to say I didn't know how to put it So I tried to hide it But it can't be concealed any longer
I'll try to say it here and now I'll try to tell you how I feel I love you with all my heart Knowing that the love will never return....
There is many things in life, he'll never know, but somehow, it remains in a part of my heart.
What he doesn't know Is that I love him in my heart I knew that he was special I could tell right from the start
What he doesn't know Is that when I close my eyes All I can see is his image As he slowly passes by
What he doesn’t know Is that I remember every word Every single thing he says Everything I've heard
What he doesn't know Is that I dream of him at night And what I really long for, Is for him to be in my sight
What he doesn't know Is that I long for him to say Just one single word Anything, so I can stay
What he doesn't know Is that I treasure all the time Every minute that I’m with him Seems like a lifetime in my mind
What he doesn't know Is that we’re so far apart I wish that he knew Because It’s tearing at my heart
What he doesn't know Is that I long to see him smile To be with him just once To make this all worth while
What he doesn't know Is that every time I find him He becomes more desirable And always very kind
What he doesn't know Is all of the pain I feel Because keeping this from him Makes it all too real
What he doesn't know Is that I want to hold him tight Keep him close to me To make everything alright
What he doesn't know Is that everything he said Repeats over, and over As I replay it in my head
What he doesn't know Is what I’ll never say Everything I thought of I threw it all away
What he doesn't know Is everything I hide Afraid of what he’ll think I keep it all inside
The only way a cruch could end, is to be crushed by your crush.Should I smile because we're friends or cry because that's all we'll ever be?
Photo of the day( As per request by my dearest krystal )
Friday, May 21, 2010
It's the puppy day ; 12:15:00 PM
There you go. Casper baby after his grooming, Agreeable that he resemble Shane. Fetch Casper at Shane's House than Vinc fetch us down to Pearl's Pet shop, Pet Avenue I think. Accompany Casper through his grooming, and waited for Shane to fetch him. Spend some time playing with Max baby while waiting for Casper baby.
Headed down to Scotts Road with pris and Vinc as Pris wanted to purchase her uniform, than went to have our early dinner at Katong. Went home after dinner as Pris needs to get ready for her Basic theory test at Ubi Driving Centre than send her down for her test. Spend some time clearing Vinc Car as it's sooo Messy! Althought she failed , but i believe she will pass in the next round. Headed to Parkway to have our Dinner at ajisen with Max baby , Vinc & Pris, A bad experience there. Food was served Cold, Rats fighting on the ceiling floor as we could hear the squeaking so clearly * Hair stand* , Poor service..
Vinc is in the mist of planning for his pet shop that he gonna open soon, still looking for shop location around the East area. More sophiscated service and personalise service for the customers, Will update more in time to come !! Took many picture with Max baby !! Love love
-Sherlyn loves Max`Kiki`Eliza`Casper baby <3
Thursday, May 20, 2010
It's gonna be a long long but yet a happy day tomorrow (: ; 12:29:00 AM
Gonna be a long long day tomorrow.
Gotta wake up early in the morning for school tomorrow, head to school for lesson, gonna leave school around 2 plus to fetch Casper ( Shane's precious puppy ) for his grooming at Fursnip than head to Scotts road perhaps to collect my sister uniform while waiting for baby Casper to be done for his grooming and end of with accompany sister for her Basic theory test at Ubi Driving Centre. Good to occupy my time, in order for me to stop thinking for other stuff (:
Had a long day today, woke up early as Vinc reached around 9, to give baby Eliza her daily dosage of cleaning and medication, than bring me for lunch before he send me to my driving school for driving lesson. Headed down to River Valley to fetch Kiki ( Vinc's puppy ) and down to katong to get some of vinc stuff. Bring the 2 precious ( Max & Kiki ) back to vinc house to bath to keep them clean.. Brought the 2 sweetie out today, Finally~ Felt so sweet (:
Vry very tired while writing this entry.. Good night people.. Gonna take tons of pictures with Casper!! Simply love dogs and puppy !! <3
So much of sweet talks in the past, that make me fall for you, at the end of the day, you're just like any of them that you once commented. As i read the message, i knew it gonna be the last, didn't reply, didn't call, didn't cry, but just stone-ing there, wonder if i'm fine.. Perhaps, i'm numb to these coldness.
My heart since than, turn into stone. Maybe,it's meant to be like this way.
The worst feeling in the world is giving all the love you have
and knowing it will never be returned..Sometimes the person you really need is the one you didn't think you wanted.Me, I'm scared of everything, I'm scared of who I am, what I saw, what I did, but most of all I am scared of walking out of this door and no feeling for the rest of my life, the way I feel when I'm with you.If you're going to make me cry, at least be there to wipe away the tears, but i doubt so..Everyone tells me I should forget about you, you don't deserve me. They're right, you don't deserve me, but my heart once think that, she deserve you.Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.It's hard,painful but it's an experience i ought to learn.. Learning to let go..It takes a couple seconds to say Hello, but forever to say Goodbye..I wonder, when you look into my eyes and watch my heart shatter, does it break your heart too, even crack it a little bit? I doubt so..I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy, I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry, I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me - I’m going to smile.A great love? It's when you shed tears for him but still you care for him. It's when he ignored you but you still long for him. It's when he starts loving another, and yet you manage a smile and find the courage to say "I'm happy for you."And i guess, that would be me..
Maybe it's time to say goodbye..
I guess this gonna be the last entry for this person.
(Deciding if i should give Shi kai away ): Because it remains me of the memories)
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
痴心绝对 Chrous - Shane` ; 4:07:00 PM
Credit to Vincent, who took this video.
It's my first video post on My Blog (=
Enjoy( Even though it's jus 18 Sec) (:
You're someone in life i would never want to lose ; 10:23:00 AM
Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt, but it's the only way to live life completely. I told someone today " Love is like life. Not everything is easy, not every road brings happiness, but if we don't give up on life then why should we give up on love ". As long as we try, it'll be alright. What's meant to be will always find a way. Some people asked , Destiny is what it is ... or is it what we make it to be?" Everyone have their own special little answer, in a part of the heart.Always remember that through the turmoil love may bring, the heart sees what the eyes cannot.You'll be surprised to know how far you can go from the point where you thought it was the end.The greatest ironies of life: having the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right, and finding out that you love someone after that person walks out of your sight ....To the one i love, Love me for a second, and I will make that second last a lifetime!Take a look at what you have. Think of all you did to get it. Remember it only takes one second to lose ..
You were my strength when I was weak, you were my voice when I couldn't speak, you were my eyes when I couldn't see; you saw the best there was in me.You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel. I feel you, every now and than.Love happens whether you want it to or not. Don't try to control it. I like doing little things for you.And the way you talk to me.. I love the small talks and the way you look at me..I miss you, every time when you're gone and miss you more even when you're with me..he most precious love occurs without choice, and when you least expect it.To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken, because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing. I've risk and even if my risk fails, i don't regret.We never lose by loving but we always lose by holding back.. To the world you may only be one person, but to one person you may be the world.. And that person, is me. I wanna you to be my sweetest hello and hardest goodbye. I'm staring to miss you again.
Never know if you gonna read this because you rarely have time for yourself.But i know, this is specially for you. Imy ..
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
; 5:05:00 PM
It's been so long I had a good sleep. Had night mare initially but it turn up to be extreme sweet after that.. Dreamt of someone that I don't wanna lose,and everything was really nice, forgotten an impt part in the dream , but it's a good thing though , dream that we forgotten will come true .. The kiss was awesome ( on the dream ) , the hug was priceless just like the way you first hug me in ratchada .. I still remember the day and dates clearly .. I know that I'm missing you , abit too much each day .. Joanna knows me well, because from day 1 I fall for you, she have been the one encourging me through this journey even with the negative comment from the others.. The way I smile when I recieve a call / text from you (: she seen it all .. Thanks sweetheart for walking through this uneven path with me !!
Gonna see you tonight( If there is no changes =_=" )..Tonight it would be only you and just you in my mind .. In fact , everyday. I remember every word you once said to me .. Let your hug bring me away again (: Hearing akon - right now while typing this part of entry in dylan's car, on the way to medical appointment ... It's Shane 1st R&B song I heard him singing .. First song I heard him singing for me was ( shi Jie Wei yi de ni ) ..
Monday, May 10, 2010
Walking through this path .... ; 6:33:00 PM
Back to school again , woke up at 8 to wake Darren up , went back to sleep for awhile than headed to have my shower and prepare to meet Darren , together with pris , we took a bus over to bukit batok as school is over there and Darren's work place is near there too .. People always adore the one that forget them and forget the one that adore them .. Some how , I find what Alvin say true , of all guys he've seen before, he still thinks that Andrew is the one for me, yet i left him alone, feeding on those pain .. I've yet till now , apologised for hurting you .. Andrew, I'm sorry .... Find a better girl alright.
I can't expect to be the same anymore. No longer that desire to hold it strong. Just walking through this path, not crying anymore , not being angry anymore .. But just let it goes with the flow.. Reason being , what is yours , no matter what you do , it will come back to you.. I forgive, I forget not because of anything , at least I've answer to myself with no regret...
Really thanks Joanna darling , Vin , Ber, Ken , Roy , Dylan,Wayne for accompanying me through these days .. Appreciated ..
Shane told me of the description for the hairstyle he told me that night, asking me to have a try .. Will show my hairstylist the description when I go over !! I gonna have a new new look again .. Missing someone while typing this in class ... Guess he should be sleeping right now (:
Sunday, May 9, 2010
; 6:52:00 PM
As I walk along the path way , I thought of " if I've never met him , what would be like now ?? " would I still be holding on to the uncertain future or would I start to change to my life style ?? This special someone have the ability to make me fall so deeply with him, the ability to make my heart skip a beat every time I sees him. It's been so long I've find back this special feeling , in the road of getting this special feeling , the road was uneven , bumps and corners everywhere , it brings me a combination of happiness , safeness , tears , anxiety and more .. There are times I thought giving up would be a better option , but thinking back on how much I go through , passing each and everyday , and those moments we share , the idea of giving up become my sole supporter , trying to be my best for him .. Always believe , success only comes to those who try and do their best and not those who choose giving up as their option .. In this learning journey of love , I learn to cherish, cherishing every moments I've , with the one I treasure .. Looking forward to the day I could be with him again , the priceless hug, and the way look into my eyes, I don't know how to put this feelings into words but I know , it's something that I would always remember .. I wish your eyes could tell me everything in your heart.. But for sure I know , there is something in the way you look at me , but I never know what could that be , I feel different in your eyes , every time , every moment.. Music is my life and you're just like those melody in my life , you make me smile, you touch my heart, you made me feel loved but yet you can be like the saddest song that always brings me to the deepest thought , but these are moments , that I realise, no matter how things goes , I still want you to be in my life. It's so much to know , know how my heart feel.. Wishing that you could walk with me , till the end of the our journey in life...
You may not believe on what you see , but I know , you knew all along from day 1 , I've been falling deeply , to you as the days goes by .. At times , I try to make it seems that I don't care and bothered much , but deeply , I care Little too much each day..
Woke up early today to go for driving practical lesson , reached ard 8:05 , pretty early , as lesson starts at 8:30.. Toss and turn around the entire night, can't sleep fir nuts .. Insomnia I guess .. I need a little time away , a little surprise to spark up my bored life .. School,projects,work,driving,matters of the heart,family ......
After all that we been through , i realise that you're not just the guy next door, you're indifferent , you invade into my heart and left apart of you in me .. Time and time again , I wish I could know you , a little earlier each day.. Someone who lives in my heart, you're the someone in life I never wish to let go, you're the someone that l love .. When people out there hurt me , I knew you were just a text away .. All these was enough..
Another day (:
Woke up in the morning, preparing for driving lesson , somehow my instinct leads me there , ah , because Shane commented on one of my wall post at his profile, the question was on what would he dislikes the most , and I answer : he dislikes his hair being screwed up ! And if he can't sing, because that's his passion baby .. Oh yea , I dreamt if Shane's puppy yesterday !! Casper !!
Had a 3 hour drive today around ubi to tampines , than back to home , last few minutes was raining .. Went home and take a rest till Ber came my house , than headed to fetch xiao si from grooming parlour , than headed hm.. Gulp down a glass of henessay vsop, texting someone at the same time, resting .. Maybe meeting Mr. Someone later ( confidential ) after his work ..
Well what Bernard say is true , don't let unnecessary hints bother me too much.. Starting a new chapter of life, a brand new Sherlyn (: I've finally realise , the true image of humans , can be hurtful at times.. But I'm happy with what I have now , right now , this moment .. Let it be .. Life is short , stay happy than live a life without regrets .. I've grown to become Little wiser each day , and no matter how much I fall , I still stand strong.. Forgive and forget , compromise and toleration , a word i stand strong on .. Tired of people that create issues out there, just want to be peaceful , live a life , happily ... Let the past , be the past .. I need a life (:
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Once again, My confession ; 2:38:00 PM
I still like you for who you're , I'm attracted to your passion on what you're doing .. I realise that I can't seems to get your image of my mind, because everybody knows your existence in my life, and have been constantly commenting on you and what actually attracted me to you.. It's clear that , I haven gave up on you, no matter what happen ahead,what restriction ahead .. Maybe it's true, that I'm falling deeply for you.. Would things be different if I were to let you know, that I really love you, I can't see myself , because all I could ever see was you and the only time I see my shadow, is through your charming eyes.. Whenever I talk about you, a smile would certainly light up on my face .. Imy once again ...
Writing this entry while I'm in chef Adrian lectures , plan out my events projects and distributed to my members , menu planning , kitchen organisation projects is lessen down as chef cut down on several areas to make it easier .. Chef say something today , that I guess makes me feel better , " a chef would always go around to different place to experience and learn for a better " Bryan have been quite busy , but I guess after thinking through yesterday night , I just let everything be like how it is.. Ken is right , by worrying day and night of him over working his body , it does not benefit me in anyway.. I guess Bryan is right too, this is how he is , and how he want things to be done .. So I shall just let him be ... Finally let down this heavy stone on my back , shall pack my day fully everyday , not gonna think of it anymore.. Driving lesson every wed,sat,sun , ratchada - not now , projects- every day , gonna sleep early everyday and to pack my room , not forgetting to compose the music for the song that Shane's compose ,abit hard but I try as promise (:
Slept abit and wake up to use Alvin laptop , to see what's on facebook and my blog.. Al thought constant nagging from him to stop viewing " someone dearest" facebook ... Will be heading home after school as I'm still feeling unwell , headache and back ache causing by the drowsiness by the medication I took in the morning.. Fever not yet subside ...
I will always wait, till the day I could see you again .. I guess I can't meet him again .... Cos , busy at work ...
Posted this entry after so long. So the dates maybe wrong (:
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
; 11:16:00 PM
My friends are always telling me to move on, to give up. But why? Why should I? They don't see you the way that I see you. They don't look into your eyes and see the world. Why would they understand? They can't possibly imagine what it means to look at your best friend and see all their hopes and dreams come true. I wish for once, just once,they could walk a mile in my shoes. But they wouldn't need to walk that far, they would just take one step and suddenly, they would take back every bit of'getting over you'advice they had ever given me and realize you're my life, you were meant for me,and that moving on or giving up is simply not an option. ____
Heavy hearts, like heavy clouds in the sky, are best relieved by the letting of a little water. ___ Don't ask me why, i wish to tell you i'm fine everytime you look and me and ask me how have things been doing for me. But everytime i would say softly in my heart, that i'm not fine when you turn back . I want to see you, suddenly, but i know it's impossible. I still remember what you once told me, not to drink when i'm upset/sorrow because it make me feel worst..I promised you, i would only drink, when you're around. I wish to hold you tight tonight, and every other night.. imy.. This post, is meant for you and only you.
; 11:05:00 PM
Let this be the last drop of tears..
At least i know, i've tried..
Another night without you ... ; 6:52:00 PM
Tossing and turning throughout the night , missing the way you look at me , missing the way you hold me on, missing your concern and everything you've with me.. Those moment is precious , it's eternal , it's something that keeps me going .. I never know that I would fall so deeply for you, no matter how imperfect you're .. You make me yearn for your love, you rise me up and make me fall at times... But still , it don't change my feelings for you... Absence makes the heart grow fonder , but make the rest of me feel lonely .. Every of your little gesture , make me feel like no tomorrow , your call, text or your accompany when you're free ... And for everything I do , the only person that came across my Mind, was you , beloved ... Many may say, it's something that it's hard to predict, but I know , you're someone in life that I dint wanna let go.. You're my piece of note , to complete the song ... The saddest song are often fill with the deepest thought, and it left me wondering at times ... I want to be the bright star in that dark sky of your .. Never want you to be upset , and as days pass by , i wish that you're fine.. No more injury because every time you hurt yourself , i feel the pain too ... All I wish for , is to see you smile , for every time I see you .. I will wait , till the day I could hold you tight , without any barrier any restriction, imy ): ___ First day of driving lesson today , reached ubi driving centre at 10am , first lesson was moderate , just abit scary , because it's the first time I operate on a car , drive around the circuit for 7 to 8 times , kind of weird but yea, hope every session would be smooth sailing for me.. Hopefully I would be able to pass my tp on June 15 , than get a car within 1 year (; pop a halls honey flavor candy before hand into my mouth and start concentrating on learning to drive a car.. Motivation to learn driving today mainly are from my mum , Ken & ken's mummy .. Wonder what Bryan's thinking at that point of time .. He have been busy these days, even during his off days, he is also occupied by work.. Getting use to this kind of lifestyle gradually , can't help it , he have already mention that he's a workaholics , although I find no worth doing that much yet little pay back , no matter what , I will do my best to support him na .. Bryan, hope that you won't have any things on for this coming Friday .. Can't wish only hope.. ___ It's been so long , I've miss someone so deeply , the feeling is true , purer than water , precious like diamond .. 3 more days to 8 may .. Hopefully someone remember this day (:
Sherlyn is missing the love of her life ):
Monday, May 3, 2010
It's Monday again ... ; 11:56:00 PM
It's a messy day today , firstly I was late for lecture, cab down to school, than while walking up the stairs , saw Alvin and group, than I realise that events and convention lecture is cancel, did not tag along to watch iron man 2 with them , sat in the library for a while , and I receive another call from Alvin . He says " all lesson cancel , except business statistic " , than I decided to skip the class and headed somewhere.
In the dilemma to decide if I should call Bryan , as I was suppose to meet him after class, but still he woke up and headed to prepare to meet me at bugis.. Thanks Bryan (: headed to accompany him to cut his hair, and I wonder why all hairstylist have the same kind of working pattern , they say the same words and same style... Felt kind of weird though.. Bryan says that I looked very white today !
Well right after the haircut , dearest brings me to have my lunch at fish & co , always dote on me (: and right after lunch , headed to holiday inn for his interview .. Kind of tired now ): perhaps it's because of the scorching sun..
A long pause before I wrote this part of my entry, watched ip man 2 with Bryan and his friend , it's the 3rd or 4 movie I watch with Bryan (: Had dinner with them before that , Bryan went carefour to get me yogurt , knowing it's good for me, afraid that I would get too lazy to stock up yogurt at home , he get me 2 container of it (:
After sending me to the train station, he headed home... Spent my day very wisely today (; Writing this entire entree at different interval , different place , different time while I'm free as Bryan is doing his stuff or when I'm alone .. Gonna post it when I'm home tonight..I'm tired ): my room seems empty tonight, no nagging and no one to pester me to sleep early ...
Feel so quiet, I miss the voice.. Gonna rest for the night ... Loves (:
Monday, April 26, 2010
; 11:56:00 PM
Its Monday again ! Bryan's off day .. Finishes class around 5pm headed to singpore general hospital with Bryan, he accompanied me over to visit my grandma , spend quite sometime there while Bryan talk to my uncle at some point of time , and all I could do , is to hold granny hands and pat her back . After the visit , went over to city hall with bryan , but end up having our dinner at marina, cafe cartel , Bryan's steak wasn't well cook , my fish and chips was abit too oily , but overall was alright .. After dinner , we head to hong kong cafe for desert , had mango sago or something like that and went home after that .. Enjoyed myself that day , and look forward for more dates (:
Its a long long day for me, slept through the entire day in class , went out for lunch with Alvin,Chris, royston at the industrial canteen... Finishes class at 4pm , headed to take a train to enous than went to office to do something . Headed out for dinner with mum and her friend at macperson and went home after that. Bryan came home around 12 . Slept very late that night, thought over some stuff and decides to do what I'm suppose to do, perhaps, Bryan is right, I should have let him know, how I really feel for him, in the past. And let everything be history.. And also to be fair to those, that stand by me at my darkest time , ESP Bryan himself .. Although people out that have been ranting and being abit bitchy in words, but it does not matter. Don't think you know it all (: Well well well, Dream on (:
My life revolve around you, just you ; 11:56:00 PM
You're like my addiction, someone that I can't stop thinking and desire for.. If only you were here... Tried to keep my mind blank to focus on what I should do, but the only thing left on my mind , was your image , your voice and everything that belongs to you.. I wonder what makes you so special , I wonder what makes me miss you , that much I am sure of, it's so true ... You may not be someone to everybody , but for once, I'm sure , you're someone important to me . Everything minute seems to pass so slowly when you're not around , and when you're , time seems to pass , like the speed of the bullet train in japan. Wishing time would stop for me, whenever you're around... Did you know, I really miss the way you look at me... How I wish dreams can turn into reality , because every night , I dreamt of you , and every night I see you in my dream .. I remember everything you said to me from the day I fall for you. You never know that you meant everything to me.. Imy ... Writing this entree in class, but will be posting it when i reach hme later..
Writing out all my thoughts because I wanna keep my mind blank , at least for once .. Missing you abit too much each days .. And I know , I'll always want to be there for you, if you need a listening ear. Imy .... You may not be the most perfect guy in the eyes of the crowd , but you've always been perfect in my eyes. Thanks for giving me this wonderful memories and moment, you may not know but I do mean alot to me.... Love <3
[x] Name : Sherlyn - Sherliza Wang
[x] D.O.B : 25/09/1989
[x] School attended : University of Bradford - Tourism
[x] Last attended school : Diploma In Hotel Management - Shatec (DHM708B)
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Sherlyn, loves her maltese Eliza, and only her.
I'm who i'm and who i desire to be.
Love it or hate it, it doesn't matter. Because it don't benefit me either way..
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